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SNEAK MOTOVADEDCOLUMNS PEAK CONTENTSPSYCHIC TWINS: BEARD LIFE MONTHLY NEWSLETTERMATCHING TATS Terry & Linda JamisonTRUTH BE TOLD I DON’T NEED COFFEEEMPTY NEST TO WAKE UPSYNDROMEFIBER OPTIC Giovanna MaimoneFLOOR TURN DOWN FOR WHATAll Material encolsed in Motovaded Magazine is subject to Steve Andersoncopyright and cannot be copied or distributed without writtenpermission from the owners of Motovaded Magazine. BERMING DESIRE Kayla Kahn CLICK SUBSCRIBE magazine RECEIVE MOTOVADED MAGAZINE DIRECTLY TO YOUR INBOX (FOR FREE) CLICK HERE

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LET’S GET BEARD..Hipsters are a subculture that His artistic style and swagger about his personality that make up hisvalue independent thinking, well thought out designs for his char-counter-culture and appreciation of art. acterised beard and demeanor is whatSo, leave it to us at Motovaded to have makes Garey sought after for his origi-deemed the new age term nality.“MUSTACHE HIPSTER”. Welcome, Garey Faulkner. 31 year old “My beard started as a bet to not shave from Cincinnati, Ohio who has the for 1 year for $1,000 for charity. I won “beard of many faces”. Garey goes on to the bet but she didnt hold up her end say “I have became the most popular of things. So, I kept the beard and then bearded face in the world now, with all began picking up promo/modeling of my ideas and projects I have done to jobs. My Christmas tree beard is one of this day.” my personal favs. I even won to be an Exclusive NFL/New Era Bengals model4 MotovadedMagazine.com

..ABOUT THINGSfor the NFL. Out of a million peo- You can visit Garey and his beard byple’s faces, they chose mine! That’s visiting:been my most memorable moment.Also, meeting Arnold the terminator, Instagram: Instagram.com/MisledCincinnatiJenna Marbles & Toby keith. I was Twitter: Twitter.com/BengalsBeardalso invited to the next Oscars.” Facebook: Facebook.com/pages/My-Bearded-“I get to do a lot of charity work rais- Life/296147647189499ing money for sick kids, rehomingalot of dogs & pitbulls” says Garey. “I MotovadedMagazine.com 5want to thank my sponsors along theway.”SPADE KREATIONSIMMORTAL CANVAS & TATTOONO NONSENSE PERSONAL TRAININGTIGERFITNESS.COMBEARDILIZER

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BLIND AT BIRTH... BUT NOT BL Regardless of having been blind since birth and raised in a puppy mill, Smiley the beau- tiful golden retriever doesn’t seem to have anything to be sad about. This happy dog is so motivating, joyful and affectionate that he works as a therapy dog, spreading his joy to mentally ill and dis- abled patients every week possible. Stacey Morrison, the photographer behind these beautiful photo’s with Smiley, had this to say about him: “He bumps into things a8 MotovadedMagazine.com

LIND ABOUT REAL HAPPINESS lot. And as I quick- ly learned, when he’s running to- wards you, he doesn’t know when to stop! But otherwise he gets along just fine. In fact, as he’s go- ing about his doggy business — sniffing, listening, frolicking, nuzzling — you for- get that he has a dis- ability”. So much is to be learned from this vivacious pup about being happy in life.” Source: happytailspetphotography.ca Facebook.com/happytailspetphotography MotovadedMagazine.com 9

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Turn your plants intovegan wall mountswith these amazing de-signs created by a teamof Italian designers in-spired by the Japaneseflower arrangement“Ikebana.”Ikebana- also referredto as “living flowers”, isan ancient Japanese artof enlightened flowerarrangement. “Elke-bana is the first trophyfor plant lovers. Youjust need flowers andimagination” says Fa-bio Malito via his web-site. His imaginationfueled by a spiritualaspect created thesebeautiful non-violent“Trophy Mounts.”Source: Elkebana.com MotovadedMagazine.com 11

SKELETON MUMMY INSIDE ANCIENT STATUE A CT scan of a Buddhist statue the Netherlands,-gave them their first close-up look at the from the 11th/12th century has re- skeleton inside the statue. vealed an amazing story- it houses the mummy of an ancient Chinese That’s when they discovered the Buddhist monk whose organs have hidden paper scrolls and figured been replaced by ancient Chinese out that the mummy was actually scrolls. the body of Liuquan- an Scientists knew that there was a ancient Buddhist master from mummy inside the statue, but the the Chinese Meditation School. CT scan, carried out at the re- quest of the Drents museum in (More information: Nhmus.hu & Drentsmuse- um.nl)12 MotovadedMagazine.com

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BERMing Desire Shining light on Women’s Motocross Motovaded Magazine is highlighting and bringing more atten- tion to Women in the adrenaline-packed sport of Motocross. Every month we will featuring either a Pro Women’s Motocross Racer or an up and coming racer that we feel lives a Motovaded Lifestyle. So if you wanna see girls in action tearin’ it up on the track and battling it out as rough as the guys, stay tuned. It is one thing to watch insane high entensity videos in this column or check out the jaw dropping images but you will be able to also see what these girls are like underneath the helmet as they share one of their very own “Raw Reality Moments”. If YOU would like to be featured in this column send an email to Kayla Kahn via [email protected] MotovadedMagazine.com

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24 year old Ashley Dennis has ing her KTM 50, just killing it! At the son and as a rider. Whether its a young end of the night I rode over and gave girl or young boy I always encouragebeen riding for 17 years and racing her a high five and said ‘great job’. them to never give up and try theirfor 4. There are so many moments Since we don’t have enough women hardest. I have met so many amazingshe can recall out of her years in or girls in the sport I always encour- people in the last two years and haveMotocross but two in particular age and support the girls, as well as grown so close to all of them. We arehave stood out to her as her most the little guys in general. like one big family and that’s how itprofound “Raw Reality Moments”. The next day, I ran into them again should be; We all support each other inNot being able to choose just one to (the little girl and her parents) and our good times and our bad.”share with you, she has decided to started talking; they were training as THE BADshare the good and the bad. From I was. Her name is Maddie and she “In October at the opening race forAshley Dennis herself, here are her is 5 years old. From that day forward Triple Crown MX I had a very badtwo Raw Reality Stories: we have been inseparable. I help her crash that put me in the hospital. I wasTHE GOOD train when I can and I’m at every race racing the 250 beginner class with a“I’m always at the local tracks- whether I’m there racing myself or gate of 20+ guys. First moto I did fairlyMilestone MX and Perris MX train- just supporting her. well finishing with in 7th place. As iting on my 2012 Honda crf250r and Since then I have met a numerous came down to the second moto, theworking hard. Usually when I go I amount of young girls who ride and gate dropped and we all took off. I had anever see any girls of any age riding. I have grown very close to each of great start and was in 2nd. After about 4About a year ago I was at Milestone them- watching them grow as a per- corners I was passed to fall into 5th. AsMX park and saw this little girl rid-16 MotovadedMagazine.com

I hit the double in the back section I realized Thank you to everyone who has helped me get this far andthat someone had went down and their bike has supported me through my racing and riding! (I’d listwas laying right in the landing. There was names but it) might be a tad long!”nothing I could do but hope for the best. I Connect with Ashley Dennis via Facebook: Facebook.com/ended up hitting his bike and being ejected shle348?fref=tsabout 15 feet. I don’t remember anythingafter hitting the bike- I just remember wak-ing up in the hospital with a broken ankle,collapsed lung, I couldn’t move my left sidefor a week, I suffered a concussion and hada seizure. Come to find out I also tore myrotator cuff in my left shoulder and am stillawaiting surgery.I’ve had some bad crashes but this by far wasthe worst of them all. Even with everythingI have endured I still have a great love andpassion for this amazing sport. The motofamily came together and were amazingduring this rough time. I’m looking forwardto getting back on the bike and workingtowards my goals. Good or bad this sport isamazing. MotovadedMagazine.com 17

It’s so cold out that the sea on the coast ofNantucket, an island on the eastern coast of the U.S., has turnedinto a slurpee. Jonathan Nimerfroh, a photographer and surferwho’s in love with the ocean, snapped these beautiful images.(For more information: www.jdnphotography.com)18 MotovadedMagazine.com

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Do You Have a Small We-ness? By Terry and Linda Jamison, The Psychic Twins “When a man is wrapped up in himself, he makes a pretty small package.” - John Ruskin, English critic and reformer Self-centeredness has become an epidemic these days. The two of us have tried to organize groups to create projects but they inevitably fell apart because of a lack of commitment on the part of some of the group members. Over time, we would find ourselves becoming disap- pointed by the lack of a group spirit and and a sense of commitment to a bigger cause. We jokingly refer to this phenomenon as “Having a small We-ness.” We believe this failure to see oneself as part of a larger group whole is what leads to so much of the negativity and alienation we’re witnessing in the world. Martin Seligman, author of Learned Optimism, lists the four causes of pessimism: Big “I”— self-centeredness. (Carl Jung said this is the root of all evil) Small “We”— isolation from others. Loss of Confidence – loss of hope. Victimization of self – rather than “victor” we choose to be a “victim.” 20 MotovadedMagazine.com

In one study, researchers analyzed 154 middle-aged and older married couples talking about disagreements.The conversations between those who used the “we” words produced a better outcome and were less physicallystressful on both sides. The “I” couples were shown to be less satisfied with each other, according to the study. “Individuality is a deeply ingrained value in American society, but, at least in the realm of marriage, beingpart of a ‘we’ is well worth giving up a bit of ‘me,’” said Robert Levenson, professor of psychology and co-authorof the study published in The Journal of Psychology and Aging.Studies have shown that “we-ness” vs “me-ness” is a strong predictor of how happy younger couples will be. Thisstudy shows how the pronoun/identity factor plays out over time as couples either support each other or becomepolarized over disagreements. “The use of ‘we’ language is a natural outgrowth of a sense of partnership, of beingon the same team, and confidence in being able to face problems together,” said co-author Benjamin Seider. The new generation is obsessed with claiming an identity or a place of one’s own, demanding attention, andfeeling entitled to fame or riches regardless of talent or deservingness. One must win or be a star at any cost.Today’s young people have been raised to believe they deserve to be CEO’s and millionaires at a time when itis more difficult than ever to get into college, find a good job, and afford a home. Their freedom is greater, butironically they experience more depression, cynicism and feelings of isolation. They are not raised with a sense of“We-ness.” According to psychologist Jean M. Twenge, Generation Me is different from previous generations, especiallyfrom the “Me generation” of the 1970s. “Baby Boomers were sometimes called the “Me generation” in the 1970s,but this was a premature and brief label: Boomers did not discover the self until young adulthood, and even thendid everything in groups, from protests to seminars like EST. Generation Me has never known a world that putduty before self, and believes that the needs of the individual should come first. This is not the same thing as be-ing selfish – it is captured, instead, in the phrases we so often hear: “Be yourself,” “Believe in yourself,” “You mustlove yourself before you can love someone else.” These are some of our culture’s most deeply entrenched beliefs.” So—as you move forward in nurturing your psychic intelligence, take the time to stop and ask yourself: DoI have a small We-ness? And, if so, do whatever you can to reconnect with those around you. The best way weknow to connect with others is to join a club, become involved with a local charity, or do volunteer work. In the last five years or so, we have found that our own Facebook groups have been extremely supportive andencouraging to thousands of people, young and old. Many social networks give spiritual people a forum to reachout and ask for support, and the outpouring of love and sharing has been a truly heartwarming experience foreveryone involved! Encourage your children to take part in activities that require them to work together towards a common goal.Whether they’re trying to win a game or complete a community service project, children learn to work as part ofa team. This will help them become more “We” oriented in adulthood. After all, we are all connected…we are allone. And together, we can make a difference.Take care of one another… and we’ll see you in the future…Terry and Linda JamisonThe Psychic TwinsWebsite: PsychicTwins.comFB/ThePsychicTwins MotovadedMagazine.com 21

PARENTS GET MATCHINGTATTOOS TO MATCH DAUGHTERSBIRTHMARK SO SHE DOSN’T GROW UP TO FEEL...“DIFFERENT” Mirror.co.uk/news/weird-news/caring-parents-tattoos-young-daugh- “I stood at a check ters-5226401 Elitedaily.com/news/world/parents-get-tattoo-daughters-birthmark- out till, when I saw wont-feel-different/947256/ an old couple whis- pering and staring22 MotovadedMagazine.com at Honey-Rae’s leg. I was distraught. It was first time I had taken her out with- out covering her up and it confirmed all my worries and fears. People are cruel with- out even realising” “We had talked about having duplicate tat- toos done for a little while but that day my mind was made up”

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A creative space guru floor as well– and Baldr suggests creating a smalland Instructables user by test version first. But withthe name of Baldr, used fi- a little elbow grease andber optic skills to build him- patience you too can haveself an amazing bathroom the universe at your fingerfloor that looks like the uni- tips..Well, feet!verse kissed his floor withburning stars. Source: Demilked.com/bathroom-design-star-floor-You’ll need to be handy baldr/enough to tile and grout a Instructables.com/id/Build-a-star-floor/ MotovadedMagazine.com 25

MY MOTHERDIED IN FRONTOF MEOn March 5th, 2015 about 7pm my wife (Mo- nique Carrere) and I tradgicly watched her mother, Betty Collins, pass away on a public bathroom floor. We helped her to the bathroom, she was having trou- ble walking due to the pain in her knees, we stood outside the stall door no more than 2-3 minutes. We notice no movement so my wife yelled out for her mom getting no response. Monique then pushed the door open to see her mother slumped over against the wall and starting to turn blue. We frantically managed to quickly get her to the floor and start CPR while someone called security. Security arrived with- in moments and took over CPR. Premedics arrived several minutes later and continued to try to revive her for almost 2hrs. Then at which time we were pulled to the side and given the worst news, she was unresponsive! Now not only has her mother been pronounced dead, but they have to take her in to Las Vegas since we were in Nevada. Then to top it off, Betty has no life insurance and we are on a fixed income due to my wife’s disabilities and my current physical condi- tion that’s keeping me from working at this time. So any donation to go to cost of Betty’s cremation will be deeply appreciated. Thank You for your time and possible contributions. Sincerely, Stephanie & Monique Carrere GOFUNDME PAGE: http://www.gofundme.com/o4cq9k?fb_ac- tion_ids=809898245744240&fb_action_types=og. shares&fb_ref=undefined26 MotovadedMagazine.com

I Don’t Need Coffee To Wake UpT written by Giovanna Maimone houghts are things…use your brain accordingly. You musthave heard “Be careful what you wish for”, and that’s becauseit’s true. No matter what your thoughts are, good or bad, youare making a wish to the universe. Our thoughts manifest intoactions whether you want them to or not. It is just as easy tomanifest bad things as it is good, and it all depends on what themajority of your thoughts are. When you worry about things,you are actually wishing for what you don’t want to happen. SoLET IT GO! And where would it being going?...well, back into theuniverse with the energy that YOU created with those thoughts:Then it becomes time to let your higher powers handle it ;)No matter what your religious/spiritual beliefs are, blind faithis the best way to go when you just feel like you need answers.Sometimes releasing the need to know will free you from wor-ry and the answer will come to you once the negative energy iscleared. Energy is VERY real and it’s up to you to create whatkind surrounds you. Worrying is negative energy and will onlyproduce negative results. Faith, whether it be blind or not, willcreate the positive energy needed to create the results you de-sire. Just believe that “you are where you are meant to be” andembrace every situation, even if it’s unsettling. Be thankful thatyour awareness still exists and be open to welcome and embraceany “lesson” from the circumstance that you are in. Someonehas a good path set for you, but you need to trust that and em-brace the bad as well and be at peace with it. Peace brings joy.Joy brings more joy, and there you have created your upwardspiral. MotovadedMagazine.com 27

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I WAKE UP EACH MORNING AND WARM THE DEW DROP PETALS, THE MOISTENED LIPS OF THE TREES, I MAKE THE WARM GENTLE FLOW OF THE SOFT FOG BREEZE, I AM, BECAUSE MY LOVE FOR YOU IS BEYOND MEASURES, I WAKE UP EACH MORNING TO BLESS YOU, MY TREASURES, THEY CALL ME, DAWNS EARLY LIGHT, AND AH, SUCH A BEAUTIFUL GOODNIGHT. Written by: Samantha Stewart (All Rights Reserved)30 MotovadedMagazine.com

DRIFTINGOh how I think of you... Setting sail to the horizon I embark again on yet an-other adventure. How you are imbedded in my heart and mind. This time the adven-ture is different... As this boat heels through the ever changing sea. The dynamic ofthe wind is taking me straight and on course. “What is it ocean”, as I look ontoyour vast? “What do you have planned for me universe”, as I gaze up at yourstars? Your reflection I see my loving Imp as I gaze into the deep blue water. Yousmile so big my strong Captain. I will crew this ship without fail to reach thesafety of your harbor. My heart, energy and soul is tethered to you. How you areon my every thought...How it is to be a soul drifting around in this vast world. People view everythingthrough their own eyes because it is through those... does one absorb humanitiescolor and see all. Words can’t express or capture the acquiescence of our innerself. It’s one of our core’s most prized possession that we hold close and dearlyguard. The balance inside our soul... Our energy that makes us who we are... theliquid essence which is pure.I walk on water and draw my lines all over your body of liquid. I travel up anddown the coast to experience all of you. Each spot awaiting patiently for me torediscover giving myself effortlessly over and over again. A journey of a lifetimeawaits for you and I. Until the time we can complete our union, I will be forev-er drifting. I stick close to the ocean for comfort in an unbreakable relationship.Always Dreaming of you, catching a glimpse of your rainbow smile in the spray. Iwant to be with you forever... Dancing and holding each other high. Bringing happi-ness to all around, how crazy this life sounds.Good energy is compelled to attract colorful people...Copyright 2015Steven R Browning MotovadedMagazine.com 31

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February 6, 2015 Los Angeles back, smiles plastered on faces. When it was over, and our feet were back on the ground,Natural History Museum the murmuring spread about a “new kind ofHow appropriate that the museum would music just went down…” We left the room car-kick off its “First Friday Concerts” with Rob- rying a secret code in our departing steps thatert DeLong. Like the massive TRex skeleton will soon be shared on a much larger stage.that greets you when you enter the museum,Robert DeLong dominates the musical land- Robert DeLong: www.RobertDeLong.comscape with his brand of music. Playing his set YouTube: www.youtube.com/watch?V=U-2DBddRXFAin the appropriate titled “Mammal Room”,his music was ground shaking good. In fact, Written and Photography by: Steve AndersonI would have to classify his music as foun- MotovadedMagazine.com 33dation shaking, for his style of performancepushed the boundaries of performance music.It is one thing to watch a performer play theirEDM pre-recorded music but Robert Delongtook EDM to a new level. He played all theelectronic instruments, weaving their soundsinto a wave of energy that lifted the crowd upinto ecstasy. I could feel the room heat up ashe pushed the boundaries of beat and melodyof his hit song, “Long Way Down”. His drum-ming of both electronic and regular drumsdrove us mammals out of our bodies and intoa shared, sacred space. By the finale, we wereall in a dance form of communion, jumpingto the beat, hands thrust in the air, eyes rolled

TRUTH BE TOLD When\" I was down in the us...most of us I guess I should say- how I did it at times\" she says. Jana traumatic past experiences can be emphasizes what kept her in was dumps, I would think about my horrifying and when brought up can fear- the threats she received on her worst days and if I would take take us right back to those emotions and her family, the emotional beat- my life how selfish it would be\" we felt at that given time. The heart ings and believing that everything expresses Jana Rifkin as she glanc- ache, the hurt, the heightened sense that was said about her to tear her es back to take a look at some of of awareness we weaved in and out down was true. The slander became her past life experiences. \"I had a of running for our lives or away her daily mantra and ultimately held very hard time years ago and the from whatever it is we feared most. her back from shining on to be her thoughts of my daughter and my Jana Rifkin is here with us now to true, beautiful self. Like a hermit dogs kept me living. No matter share some of her most traumatic crab stuck in its own shell afraid to what.\" and some of her most life changing move on to something bigger and There are people that openly talk memories that she has not before better, Jana knew she had to break about their Raw Moments and opened up about on such a large free but could not gather the confi- there are those who keep them scale. dence to step outside into something hidden, tucked away in the not so \"We have patterns that we repeat. she never knew. distant past. I say not so distant I was physically and emotionally Being in a relationship with an because even the thought of one's abused as a child and I took that into abusive woman for over 15 years led past can make it appear to be as my relationships. I have been in a lot her right into another one after that if they are living through it first of abusive relationships. I kept it all chapter of her life ended and the hand all over again. For some of a secret and lived on. I am not sure divorce was finalized. Within those34 MotovadedMagazine.com

15 years Jana had a child and as years after leaving her last abu- Los Angeles and as you can see inshe mentioned prior- that is what sive relationship and learned a their wedding pictures, they con-kept her inspired to even take lot about herself and what all she tinue to live an inspired life as theyanother breath. Wanting more for wanted from life for her and her always imagined it to be. As far asher daughter than the inconsisten- daughter. Over and over she would Jana's transformation from a lifecy she had as a child growing up, hear a voice inside of her head of abuse to a life of much neededJana refused to switch the lifestyle stating \"She is just around the cor- healing, Jana finds herself more atin which they lived and endured ner.\" Not thinking too much about peace than ever and says that sheemotional abuse on a daily basis it but believing it to be true Jana has Agape to thank for that. \"Forjust to ensure her daughter could kept an open heart and an open each time I catch myself with akeep her same friends, attend the mind believing that she would find negative thought, I tell myself tosame school and come home to the true love and live in a reality in be quiet and I change the negativesame house. When it became too which she dreamed. thought to a positive one. This ismuch to handle, Jana escaped her Today, Jana is happily married to a LOT of work but you have tovery own shell and became vocal Kris, who ironically enough- lived WANT to change\" Jana says. Sheabout what she was going through only three blocks away! That voice also adds that it took her years toand how she felt. She went the inside her head saying that the get through the trauma of her pastroute of therapy and countless self love of her life is right around the along with a lot of blood, sweathelp seminars such as psi seminars corner was more than accurate. and tears but she did it and knowsand insight training seminars. \"We are a perfect match\" Jana that change really is possible forJana ended up being single for 7 admits. The two reside together in anyone who believes in themselves enough to want to do it. MotovadedMagazine.com 35

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WALK OF FAME The Walk of Fame...The Holly- has happened to her and applies wanted to start positive media. An wood Stars... So many people want the knowledge to better under- entertainment piece where it doesn’t to have their name known, their stand the Entertainment Industry tear people to pieces. You don’t have face seen and the money to experi- and what all she can do to ensure to talk shit about people to be enter- ence everything they wish to do... an everlasting and growing oppor- tained or to entertain others.” but how far is too far to get what tunity for her clients. “Getting to Going outside of just PR and ap- you want? buy those apples were so simple” pearing on the red carpet for photo Jody Taylor isn’t one of those Jody says as she confirms in others shoots, Jody keeps the same positive people that grew up around fame that there is something to be grate- outlook while representing A-list or lived the lifestyle of the rich and ful for regardless of how rough the celebrities as well as new talent that famous but today is a whole other road may be. is looking to make it big. But her story and no, she didn’t have to sell Most people representing celebri- clients are not just anyone as she is her soul to get here. “I had lived a ties and the up and coming would very specific on who she has a part dual personality life. One minute risk the most important things in of her life and business. The very my mom’s boyfriend was hitting their client’s life for a quick cut of first question she asks them is “why her in the face the next minute he cash but Jody goes about her busi- are you wanting to do this?” was cuddling up next to her saying ness in a way that is so “Organic”. I Making sure her clients are doing ‘I’m so sorry. I love you.’ Behind say Organic because when I got to what it is they wish to do because it the closed door it was a really abu- speak with her personally over the is their passion, Jody explains that sive family because of my mom’s phone that is the one word I heard although show business is a busi- boyfriend. She was so broke and about 20 times within the hour. ness- it should not be the money or here was a man that could pay the But it all makes sense! Because fame that drives you but the pas- bills” she expresses as she thinks Jody is by far Organic...you know- sion. The passion itself will drive in back to some of her most Raw not full of shit that can harm you money and fame. “I do things that Reality Moments. “I was in a realm now or down the road. She is real make me happy. I will do this until of hell. I remember those days of and gives every single one of her I don’t love doing this anymore” she hiding in the closet fearful of mine clients what they need most for expresses, confident in her decision and my mother’s life.” their life to be full of prosperity Although Jody experienced a neg- and pure potentiality. As Jody ative childhood environment with Taylor says: “How much are you a lot of chaos, it made a beautiful willing to sell your soul for? A foundation for the transformation dollar? This dollar may not be here she has made as a person and as tomorrow.” a business owner. Able to see so “The press printing who changes much about life, she takes all that their hair from brown to blonde is ending” Jody assures you. “I really38 MotovadedMagazine.com

making. Clearly, by the people she want my clients to never be afraid to share what’s behind door #1. I don’t alwaysis representing, she is not the only agree with how the “industry” treats its “citizens” but that’s ok...it’s changing. 20one that believes this to be true years ago Melissa McCarthy would never been a lead in a film. But thankfully sheand together they are dominating did today. Listen- everyone has a history - baggage - a story. Use it don’t hide it.the industry in a meaningful way. That’s what worked for me. The abuse didn’t kill me....it fueled me”“It was a struggle to get to where I Facebook.com/Sixty5Mediaam today. It is okay for people to www.sixty5media.comknow you’re gonna hit the bumps MotovadedMagazine.com 39in the road. The thing is, whetheryou are behind the camera or infront of the camera- don’t ever giveup” states Jody proving throughher own life that any career path ispossible if you believe it to be.A side note from Jody herself:“You know... I have never spokenpublicly about growing up a kid ofdomestic violence. But I think it’simportant because oddly it re-minds me of some of the negativesof hollywood. Your real life behindclosed doors is completely differ-ent than when you paste on a smileand the performance begins. I wasalways the class clown growingup so that was my “act”. So today I

EMPTY NESTI just wish to tell you that this is the first time that as well in the end, and I would have lost them. I have even turned to a few therapists, but I started I tell my story, including what happened to inside my to dread the emptiness in their eyes. I walked away heart during the prior years. I have never told anyone from therapy. Instead I became a quiet introvert. before. I had mastered the technique of hiding behind a Kind regards, smile, while the numbness took my heart over, Caren Pretorius piece by piece, because I never spoke about my Just a little background: emotions, and I had to subdue them with self-hyp- I am married to Barry Pretorius and have two daugh- nosis. I, however, found some solace in my garden ters named Rachelle [29 years old] and Chantelle [26 and my cats, and I poured my love into them. years old]. Chantelle gave birth to my first grandchild They became my anchor. last year on the 13th April. The beautiful little angel’s My life turned into insomniac cycles of three name is Luna. We are from South Africa but my hus- months. Every three months I would have an band and I presently live in Abu Dhabi and will for the emotional meltdown. My emotions then sur- next 5 years. faced in an erratic fashion. I was then caught up My Raw Reality Moment: in a whirlpool of sporadic bursts of utter anger, My husband Barry has been doing contract work for paranoia, humor and sorrow. This would go on many years away from home. And when Chantelle, for about a week, and then I would wake up one my youngest daughter, finally morning and it all would be gone. And then the left home I developed empty nest syndrome, because next cycle started. And this went on for years. there was no-one to care for. It steadily escalated into During January 2013 I was at the Mount Grace Re- a deep loneliness over the years. sort for a few days, just relaxing and meeting new I am that kind of person that doesn’t share my feelings, friends. By the time that I was really tired of living. because I have found that it is futile. How can any- I had no strength left. The thought in my mind was body know how you feel if they cannot see inside your that I can’t leave my cats behind. And by this time heart? My feelings would have become their burden I counted on God for every single thing in every single day, for every single breath I took. But I still40 MotovadedMagazine.com managed to smile and act as expected. One evening, I went outside to bathe in the perfect silent night. As I walked out of the building, onto the dim lit veranda, I noticed a guy sitting at one of the tables, situated at the side of the garden and away from the building, writing on an A4 writing pad. As I passed him I idly noticed that he was left handed and that he was writing in blue ink. I also noticed that he had nearly written a full page. I sat down at an open table close to him, staring over the beautiful garden in the light of the moon. I got lost in my thoughts, and as of faraway heard sounds close to me, but not interesting enough to catch my attention.

SYNDROME Suddenly a loud sound, like heavy metal falling on a floor, startled me out of my thoughts and I turned to look. I looked straight into the man’s eyes for a moment, and then he smiled at me. I smiled back and turned my attention back to the garden again. After a few moments I heard the scraping of a chair and turned again to look. He stood there with the writing pad in his hand, ready to leave. He looked straight into my eyes and smiled at me again and I again returned his smile. I then noticed his phy- sique. He was tall and slender. He had blond hair and wore golden rim glasses. His age could have been anywhere between 27 and 35. I remember he had a perfect face, but cannot describe his features. He chose a path through the part of the garden that I was lost in, and I watched as he vanished into the shadows. I felt bad that I didn’t even greet him, so I also got up from my chair and walked after him. He was gone. I walked back to my table and sat down again. It was then that I noticed it ... his table was also enveloped in dimness, but there was a bright light while he was there. I felt never lonely again. That day, while wandering through the garden, I felt so devastated that I turned my eyes up to the sky and a thought from Psalms crossed my mind, ‘I cast my eyes up to the mountains, where will my relief come from?’. And that night I met the messenger. I belief that God had sent this entity to me, to insure me that He will not let me fall. I belief God guided me to go out into the night so that He can give me His message. I am still who I became, but I don’t have cycles anymore, and there is a deep calmness in my heart. I have turned to writing blogs, hunting for the cute and beautiful on the internet, and so do I fill my mind with lovely things. Written by Karen Pretorius www.siqik.com MotovadedMagazine.com 41

Turning Point Michelle had no idea that Molly apologizing for Michelle Murphy Zive, a mother of stomach pain and throwing up was only the begin- ning of any mother’s worst nightmare. After days three, shares with us the moment in time when she ex- had passed with no relief, it was urgent that Molly perienced one of her deepest life changing moments. be taken in to the doctors to see what was wrong. By Molly, her 6 year old daughter at the time, was about this point, her little girl could do nothing more than to embark on a field trip to visit Old Town San Diego lay down, feeling somewhat lifeless and drained of with her classmates. The instant Molly stepped foot on energy. Within a short amount of time the doctor the bus her stomach started hurting and the bus driver calmly looked Michelle in the eye and said “I want declared “Don’t you dare throw up! Don’t you dare!” It you to go to Children’s Hospital.” wasn’t long after when Michelle received a phone call Without thinking twice about what was said Mi- stating that her daughter did not go on her field trip chelle fled to Children’s Hospital where her daugh- and was rather sick in the nurses office. ter was hooked up to pain meds and taken in for further examination. Come to find out, after several42 MotovadedMagazine.com tests were performed, they had concluded that 6 year old Molly had a ruptured appendix and was immediately taken in for surgery. After a very time consuming internal cleanup, Michelle was in- structed for Molly to stay in the hospital so nurses and doctors could keep a close eye on her while pumping her full of antibiotics to ensure a safe and effective recovery. Michelle never left her daughter’s side and they lived at Children’s Hospital for 7 days straight. If any more time would have passed, Molly would not be here to this day. “The reason why I tell this story is because it was the beginning of my wake up. She had almost died...I realized I was living the life I didn’t want to live” says Michelle as she holds back tears from flowing down her cheeks. Michelle Zive is one incredible, very inspiring woman who was fortunate enough to take this traumatic experience and make some- thing positive come out of it. Today, she is married to a great man, is attending college to get a degree in Leadership and is determined to start her own business in regards to storytelling. “It is my way of connecting. It is my way of people listening to my truth and listening to my voice. And I think sto- rytelling is the only way to do that. So I am really trying to find a way to elevate storytelling and allow anyone that wants to, to be able to tell stories and to tell their truth. It is the only way, like I said, to connect with people.”

Molly (bottom left), Kelly (bottom right), Jack (top left), David (top right) & Michelle Murphy Zive (middle)Michelle has agreed to share her Raw Reality Moment on video and in detail, personally with all of you. To watch andlisten to the in depth version of this story, hover over the video above and click on the hyperlink.Connect with Michelle on Facebook: Facebook.com/michelle.zive?fref=ts&ref=br_tf MotovadedMagazine.com 43

Unexpected Reaction Rene McVea person and a strict disciplinarian. He also took me by the hand and we went and was possessive of rigid self discipline. But, sat in the living room and she said \"whyRene McVea, now 54 years old, had he was very loving and extremely affec- didn't you tell me first?\". That was her only tionate. My siblings and I never questioned problem. She was hurt that I didn't comealways known that she was \"different\" his love. I was a daddy's girl. Whatever he to her. She basically said the same thingaccording to society standards. She felt the was doing, I wanted to do it as well. He that he did. That I was her baby and wouldneed and want to come out to her parents was very permissive in that he never dis- always be. She would love me no matterin high school but because of the emotion- couraged me from following him around what. They just wanted me to be happy.al trauma some of her friends had gone and allowed me to be his little helper. We The truth is that I had not been happy forthrough after coming out to their parents, were very close\" she describes. \" I was, in a couple of years because I was hiding myshe was frightened at even the idea of it a word, terrified. Not telling them about true self from them. After that all hap-and decided it would be best to keep it a my sexuality was hard enough, but lying pened I felt truly loved and accepted. I feltsecret. to them made it worst. I felt like I wasn't light, if that makes any sense. We spoke\"That reality gave me pause. I was afraid a good daughter. It was important to me freely about everything and I knew that Ithe same thing would happen to me. I was to be a good daughter. When he asked me was truly blessed to be their kid. Until thedoubting my relationship with my parents that night he was taking me to work and I day my dad died, he always supported mebecause of other people's reality. I felt like told him the truth it was a weight lifted.\" and loved me the same way he did the dayI would be a disappointment to them and Rene describes his reaction as \"great\". before I told him I was gay.I had spent my life up to that point trying Rene adds, \"I was so overwhelmed by his Rene ended up meeting the woman thatto do everything to make them proud\" reaction that I didn't say much the rest would be her life partner at the age of 20,explains Rene looking back at that mo- of the way to work. When we got to the not long after she opened up. \"We werement in her life. \"I worked at a club called club he asked me if I was going to tell my together for 14 years, had a child togetherFaces in San Antonio, Texas. It was a gay mother and I said 'I think I should now and my parents loved her. They treatedclub. Very popular. I was 18 years old and that he knew.' He said 'Well, you'll have her as one of the family. Prior to my dad'ssharing an apartment with a high school to tell her. It's not for me to tell'. I was death, we separated and he told me tofriend. I told my parents I was working relieved because I thought I might need make sure that we continued to raise ourthere to pay the bills and for no other a couple of days to tell her. She may not daughter (Ashly) together. He also saidreason. They believed me. Well, I thought respond the same way he did- is what I that he would never accept anyone asthey did.\" was thinking. I had my own apartment at Ashly's other parent than my ex. Just add-Rene was 19 years old the day her secret that time but was staying with my parents ing that to show his commitment to thatwas released. Thinking she was doing a because my car was in the shop and they specific relationship. We followed his guid-good job at hiding her sexuality from her were helping me with transportation. That ance and raised her together even thoughparents, she quickly learned that that was next morning when I got up and went to we weren't together and that advice servednot the case when it was the night her dad greet my mom, I knew that he had already us and our daughter well.drove her to work and popped the big told her. As soon as she saw me she startedquestion about her sexuality. \"My dad was crying and I started crying too. She askeda career military man. He could probably if I had something to tell her. So I did. Shebe best described as a very regimented44 MotovadedMagazine.com

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