Travel Through Time

Dedication I dedicate this autobiography work full heartedly to my family, friends, classmates and teachers; Thank you for the love, care and guidance. A special feeling of gratitude to my loving, supportive and understanding parents, who supported me financially. I also dedicated this autobiography to my loving instructor Mr. Marc Angelo G. Cañaveral for helping me understand more about myself. Without all your support this autobiography can’t be possible. Thank you for your consideration and understanding. Most of all, I dedicated this to our Almighty God in heaven, without Him who Guide us, who Give us knowledge and Strength all throughout this time. May this simple dedication serve a way to say THANK YOU!

Table of Contents Chapter 1 – Get To Know Me 4 Chapter 2 – My Strength, Weaknesses, 5 Opportunities, And Threats Chapter 3 – First Day To Adolescent 6 Chapter 4 – My Social Journey 7 - 11 Chapter 5 – Journey To Reality 12– 13 Chapter 6 – Road To Morality 14 – 17 Chapter 7 – Through Ups And Downs 18 – 20 Bibliography 21

Get To Know Me I am an introverted person who keeps to herself most of the time. I simply ‘go-with-the-flow’ when it comes to things. I can be very sensitive, specially when it comes my insecurities however I also try to be sympathetic to them. I consider myself as a determined person specially when it comes to my dreams and aspirations. I want to be able to show compassion to different species, to show understanding that I can help it. I believe that I am very committed to the things I want, I do not back down without a fight. I want to show the courage of being able to accept my past. I may look back on it but I would not want to stay there, to be unable to move pass it. It is better to be aware of the present but looking forward to the future. As I grew older I had realize that there is a lot more to life than what I see, that there are a lot of alternative perceptions. I hope that I will be able to find more.

My Strength, Weaknesses, Opportunities, And Threats • Open-mindedness • Understanding S • Curiosity • Persistence • Resourceful • Indecisive • Communication skills W • Lack of Confidence • Impatient • Procrastinate • Interacting with other people • Overcome bad habits O • Get more experiences • Competitions • Extracurricular Activities • Lack of Social Interactions • Online Classes T • Inflation • Health problems • Insomnia

First Day To Adolescent During my puberty, I was conscious of my own body image, to the point where I didn’t feel comfortable on my own skin. I used to wear a lot of leggings or pants to hide my legs, and jacket or long sleeve shirts to hide my arms. I also remember being happy as I started to grow taller than my own mother since I have always been told I was so short. The first time I had my menstruation was during 7th grade, I was at school that time, and luckily it happened when it was almost time to go home. At first, I thought I was just hungry since I didn’t take lunch, so as soon as I got home, I immediately grab something to eat, but then my stomach still hurt. I went to the bathroom to do number 2 but I realized the hurts means that my menstrual cycle started. It was very uneventful but luckily, I already knew about it so instead of thinking something was wrong with me, I knew that it was just normal.

My Social Journey!

I don’t really remember anything during the earlier years starting from my birth of course, until I reached the age of two, however my older sister would always complain about how I suddenly bit her whenever I am near her without any reason. She really used to hate me during that time.

Sometime around the age of 4 to 6 years old, I remember having a set of cooking toys that I would always play with, it was previously my older sister’s possession but since she outgrown it, it was given to me, a downside for being the youngest one!. I would then hide somewhere and cut a small piece of my hair and use that as an ingredient or a topping. They scolded me when they found out what I did.

When I was 10 or 11 years old, my mom used to make me a DIY boxes, for my art materials since I enjoyed drawing a lot. I organized my stuff there for example, my pencils would always be from shortest to tallest, and pens, colors, and erasers are separated. I also get really upset when someone goes through my stuff and mess it up.

When I reached the 8th grade, I am around 13 years old that time. I started to question my own previous decisions and that gives me chills especially when it comes to my previous friends. I was really attached to someone to the point that when we separated school on projmuniisoerdheiagchh, Iotfheeltrbtehtartawyeed’.llWgoe to thsehesadmidens’ct heonorol,llatnhderteheanndI fIowunadsno’tut even informed. It was very frustrating because I invested a lot of time to them that I would sometimes ignore my other friends for that person and it led to me losing contact from my other middle school classmate.

Journey To Reality!

0-18 months During this age my family kept on saying how I got lost 18 months-3 years for at least 30 minutes, they say I am only in our front 3-5 years old door watching all the passerby however when my mom 5-13 years old have something to get in our room I was gone when she came back. I fully trust our neighbor that’s why when she 13-16 years old asked me to buy something in the store I immediately agreed. I believe that I know what I want during this times. I am the one deciding what I wear, eat and want, especially what I need. During this time I developed the confidence that I knew I can fully develop all throughout the next few years. When I saw my sister’s new clothes I took the initiative to try it on myself, but I am also guilty for doing so because it lead us to a misunderstanding that created a space between the two of us. When I was in grade 2, I felt out of place since I was having a hard time coping up with my classmates in terms of writings and social activeness. My patience was tested when my sister insisted me to participate in a Declamation contest during my grade 5 years. I was born an introvert who has a stage fright, but my family was very supportive to the point that they helped me overcome that fear, and all those stress bears a fruitful result when I was announced to be the champion. My parents only have 2 child and both of us was a girl. I being the youngest one, that was also looked like my father, led them to joke for being his junior. At first, I laughed and joked with them however I was also being surrounded by a lot of male friends and this developed a personality I wasn’t fully aware that I have. I haven’t experienced being romantically attracted to anyone which gives me a confusion on who am I really. I am having a gender crisis; I still can’t figure out my sexuality. I am fully aware that I am born as a woman but there is something that triggered the confusion.

Road To Morality

During my childhood, I was very afraid of punishment since I already see what happens to my older sister. I considered myself as a good child, because I refuse to get hurt not until when I went out with my uncle to play an arcade game in one of the nearest store and I was really obsessed with it, and the thing was, we forgot to ask permission from my mother or tell her that we were going somewhere. So, when we came back home my mother was already panicking because she didn’t know where I was, she was contacting everyone she knew if they saw me. Luckily, I wasn’t the one who got fully scolded but my uncle instead. She was also trying to contact him but she couldn’t reach him, so he received the my mother’s full hysteria. Ever since then, I would always notify her about my whereabouts.

I used to really admire my older sister a lot since every single one of my cousins wants to be around her. I wanted to be like her but then I started to question some of her decisions, it wasn’t really that bad but I just don’t prefer the way she deals with stuff. For example, when she told me a story about her rejecting her friend. I don’t remember the exact details of the story but I think my sister humiliated her in front of other people, and when I asked her why she did that, she said she felt betrayed that someone who she considered as an older sister liked her in that kind of way, she was saying it in a way that if that person wanted to date her, she shouldn’t have been her friend. I still don’t really understand why she did that, but I do still consider her as a good role model.

Before, I agree that as much as possible abortion should not be done, but nowadays, when I took other peoples experience into account. I have realized that there should still be certain rules that can make abortion into a legal action, for example in other countries where abortion is legal, they have a specific time frame when an abortion can be done for example 6 to 12 weeks. I had a change of moral standards because of this, I do believe that everyone deserves a chance in life but for this one I think it depends on the situation. Different Perspective

Through ups and downs

• When I first arose at a certain period of life, I just found myself surrounded by friends that are older than me. At first, I could not relate and understand what they are talking about, and it had made me feel left out but as time moves on and after spending more time with them, I found myself growing more mature to a point that I started understanding their inside jokes. • When I first started adjusting to a new environment or changes to everything, it had been scary. I had been uncomfortable in my body and topics of the people around me. I was in awe on how much stepping to new stage in life has so much change. I manage to somehow get through with the support of those around me who also understand how I feel as they had experienced it as well. • When I finished junior high school, I knew I had to establish vocational goals, I wasn’t aware of what to be. It took me a lot of time to be able to make the final decision which is Veterinary. I made this as my goal when I started to have various kinds of pets at home, it made me more determined since I enjoy taking care of them and being able to provide them comfort as they do to me. • I think when it comes to developing my personal sense of identity, it would take more time than now. I have started on knowing myself more however there is still a lot more to learn. I haven’t really given so much focus when it comes to my sexuality, maybe its due to my lack of sexual desire or due to the confusion of what I desire. All in all maybe someday I’ll be able to reach or find my answer as I am given more time

• One of the challenges I faced and continue to do so is accepting my body image, I would always compare myself to other people and that made me insecure and feel hatred on how I looked like. Luckily, I am able to somehow manage this warped perception of mine with the avoidance of mirrors, though its not the healthiest way but it helped. I became less conscious on how I look like specially during this quarantine as by just telling myself encouraging words everyday helped a lot too. • I also still continue to have insomnia, it had given me a lot of trouble during 7th grade as it made me miss a lot of class days and it messed with my health. I haven’t really found a way to help myself with this problem however I am still thankful that for that rare days as I am able to sleep for 8 hours. • I still struggle with having an imaginary audience that are just waiting for me to mess up or fail. It really damaged my self – esteem. I can somehow manage this by keeping myself occupied on other things rather than whatever story my mind comes up with and listening to music really helped a lot. • The most challenging experience that I had so far and still continuous a little is finding myself. I used to really want to be in a group as I could not handle being left out and being alone; it started small before like agreeing to someone else’s opinion even if you don’t really share the same, I just wanted to be included and have something to relate to them. I didn’t realize it became worst until I separated with my Middle School group after the graduation. It took me to the point where I rely to much on others to make a decision for myself that led me to sometimes blame it on my indecisiveness but I realized most of the time it’s because when I do have something that I like and want, I’ll end up letting them decide since I don’t want them to dislike me or to have a disagreement with them. I seem to really put their opinions about me foremost than mine.

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In this autobiography I traveled through time and reminisce my journey starting from my very first day until I reached this certain age! (16 years old). It was quite a roller coaster of emotions that really consist all of my ups and downs.