The Class 2023

THE CLASS 2023

ABOUT THE COVER The cold gust of wind on your face. The lilting voices of your closest friends. The deep inhales of fresh air. The playful teasing every other sentence. The distracted ambling toward the destination. The aching feet after countless steps. The halfhearted complaints at the sheer distance. The impromptu singing of favorite childhood songs. The roaring laughter at inside jokes. The familiar faces of the people you traversed the past four years with. The mutual understanding of a core memory being made. The bittersweet thoughts of the future. The journey heading to the unknown. PLAY THESE SONGS WHILE READING FOUNDED 1956 Newspaper Writers Photojournalists facebook.com/thespectrumusls DREXEL JOHN N. AMIT ESTHER JOYCE M. LIMBAÑA [email protected] GEM FRANCIN R. DIOLA FEBRY ANNE D. EDUVANE VOLUME 67 NUMBER 5 · JUNE 2023 Magazine Writers LEARN D. FLORES PATRICK N. BILLOJAN ADRIANNE H. SAPLAGIO Illustrators Editor-in-Chief RIEDEN DENIELLE N. CUADRA ANGELYN EMMANUELLE H. ANNA MARIA J. VILLANUEVA KAREN E. PICO TARUBALLES Associate Editor Online Writers JAN BRILLY S. CHAVEZ KRIZZIA RICCI T. NEPOMUCENO SOPHIA YZABELLE F. GICO JOSH ALDRICH B. DIOLA Managing Editor JENNY G. MILLARES JOHN PAUL V. PECHON IMMALIE ROSE E. CAFIFGE Literary Writers SIR EMMANUEL LEE E. External Affairs Director JAMILLE E. BARRIOS MEDIAVILLA Creative Director MIKEY VINCENT T. VICENTE JAMES ALDRIN C. PAMPOSA Layout & Graphics Artists Newspaper Editor ALYSSA NICOLE T. MAQUIRAN Videographers JEREMY ANDREI D. GOHING Asst. Newspaper Editor AC HIMAYA V. TUPAS KYLE JOBE B. DE GUZMAN JUAN PAOLO P. AGAPITO Magazine Editor HANA PATRICIA RAJ E. HAUTEA JOHN BRAINARD G. UBERAS Moderator Online Editor MERYL C. SIGATON MICHAEL V. BAYLOSIS, CPA PhD Literary Editor EJ NELL VOEN A. FLORENDO Photos & Videos Editor KEILAH N. BALDOMAR The Spectrum is the Official Student Media Corps of the University of Layout & Graphics Editor PERLYN JOY L. SUGANOB St. La Salle. Its editorial office is located at the Coliseum grounds, La Salle Editorial Assistant PHOEBE DAIDOJI Q. JABONETE Ave., Bacolod City, Negros Occidental 6100; it can be reached through the telephone number, (034) 432-1187 local 172 and e-mail address, [email protected]. All rights reserved. No part of The Spectrum may be reproduced in any form without the written consent of the Media Corps. All contributions become The Spectrum property and the Editor-in- Chief reserves the right to edit all articles for publication.

photo by Keilah N. Baldomar The world is waiting for you. Most of the time, we find ourselves confronted with the fear of uncertainties moving forward. But time and again, we realize that the place we are at right now is what we had wished for years ago, and this is due to our innate nature— always in search of something greater than ourselves, never settling for the comfortable. Humans are not meant to be still; at least not for long. Driven by different reasons, we always end up leaving what’s comfortable and familiar, as attested by the old people who went before us. Nomads moved around to hunt and gather food. Ancient men began to build roads to facilitate trade and commerce, explore strange lands, and haul riches back to their homeland. Even the Philippines was “discovered” by Ferdinand Magellan in 1521 in his search for spices. Whatever the reason, the one thing that underscores all of these human movements is a new beginning. A fresh start in terms of place, experience, physical and mental state, personal growth, financial stability, career opportunity, or any other road your foot has first stepped into, and your other foot will be laid out the door— hesitantly—just like the first encounter. But, just like your first trek, you’ll be looking for a new road to traverse in no time, all excited and giddy with only a rough sketch of a map in hand and a restless soul ready for greatness. You have already made great strides, pilgrim. With so many adventures already under your belt, countless u-turns made, and unfamiliar terrains conquered, the only question left to ask yourself is: “Where to next?” Patrick N. Billojan 67th Editor-in-Chief, The Spectrum

THE CLASS 2023 CONTA BTL EEO NF TS College of Arts & Sciences SHANNIA LOUIE TAPAN Putting Passion Into Practice 10 College of Arts & Sciences JASON LABARETE First of His Name 14 College of Education PHILANDER BRAINARD FLORES A Living Rainbow 18 College of Education CHRISTINE JOY PORTILLO Christine’s Climb to the Top 22 SPECIAL PAGE Jumpstart Your Career with These Job-Hunting Sites 26 College of Engineering and Technology JOHN PATRICK TAGLE The Perfect Red Velvet 28 College of Engineering and Technology JHUSTINE CAÑETE Of Storms, Sorrows, and Sacrifices 32 Yu An Log - College of Business and Accountancy JULIET ANGELINE ALVAREZ The Beauty to Stand 36 Yu An Log - College of Business and Accountancy HAZEL MAE UY Portrait of a Foreign Muse 40 College of Nursing NISA NUGGETS Anisa: A Good Companion 44 College of Nursing CHRISTIAN RAY RENDAJE The Contents of an Optimist’s Glass 4582 ABOUTTHETHEME

University Student Government 7766540682 FRED LOUIE DONGUEZ 78 A Hero’s Journey 8988940682 Artists’ Hub FRITZ LICAÑEL Formless, Shapeless Vocations Ministry Office JOSH EZRA GUINTOS Faith in a Steady Service Balayan Office BREN CARL TALITA Tending the Hearth Varsity Sports Office JOHN TERENCE & PAUL KLINBERT CORDOVA It Takes Two SPECIAL PAGE The Graduate’s Trinity of Documents PATRICK BILLOJAN Go Get Them! KRIZZIA RICCI NEPOMUCENO Freudian Slip of Unbecoming HANA PATRICIA HAUTEA The Makings of an Overthinker KEILAH BALDOMAR Unexpected Snapshots of Oppurtunity DREXEL JOHN AMIT Losing Myself in College: A Thread

Don’t be too hard on Do not let the pressure from When you are kind to others, Always be grateful for where yourself; remember that other people dictate the way remember to be kind to you are in life and keep every small step you take that you live. Remember that yourself too. Life is not a in mind the people who brings you closer to your pressure is just a feeling so race, enjoy where it might helped you attain certain goal, so don’t be afraid to try just keep on doing your best, take you even if you have no aspirations, especially in new things and take risks. I and trust that your hard work clue where it leads. achieving the CPA title. can’t wait to see what you’ve and dedication will result in The only person who truly done! the life that you want and understands what you are deserve. going through is you, so learn from your mistakes and embrace constructive criticism well. Everything in life is “Focus on progress, not Not everyone you trust will Don’t give up. That’s what temporary. When life is perfection.” There are do the same in the end. makes life interesting. good, savor it. When times times when things go out Be careful. Also, try not to are rough, know that it is of your way but having a overthink always and just only temporary and it will growth-oriented mindset trust the process. There pass through time. allows you to seek learning will be times when you’ll opportunities amidst stumble but make the best imperfection. show of all the times that you get back up. Own the world, because it’s your stage.

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The Separation words by Rieden Denielle N. Cuadra art by Josh Aldrich B. Diola It all started here: a step towards uncertainty. Away from the warmth of friends and hearth of homes came the birth of these believers. These individuals have departed from the familiarity of what they knew, embarking upon a journey towards the unknown. All with one belief in mind: to achieve what they had set out to do, even if it meant leaving the world they once knew. A baptism by fire—from the ashes of their old world, their unfamiliar steps placed their foot out the door. Their ponds were not vast enough to realize their grand vision of who they were meant to be. So they took the leap; the sail against the wind, the dance in the rain. And all it took was faith. Chosen among the five colleges, they have been learning the ropes for several years. But behind the fiery victory, the grounded defeat, and the windy tiebreakers in between were individuals from different walks of life. Which proves that no matter which pond you swam in, as long as you believed: You can make connections in the pilgrimage.

words by Karen E. Pico photos by Phoebe Daidoji Q. Jabonete “If magsige ko mukmok sa that kind of negative situation and feeling, ano makwa ko?” It was this shocking state of realization that freed Nia from the mental cages she was trapped in and the epiphany she needed to become who she is today—empowered, bold, and fierce. Someone who so loves the spotlight. Shannia Louie B. Tapan, who prefers to be called Nia, hails from the humble city of Himamaylan, a town two hours away from Bacolod. She is currently in her last year in the Liberal Arts and Commerce (LIACOM) program, taking up Political Science and Business Economics. On top of that, she heads the University Student Court as the Chief Justice. As Nia gracefully struts to the end of her college journey, she thinks back on every struggle, inspiration, and achievement that has made her the woman she is now—one with a long list of credentials brought about by her intellect and passionate heart to serve the community. Her jam-packed schedule from extracurricular activities never hindered her to become a stellar student. 10

College of Arts and Sciences “Burnouts are inevitable, but I’ve always Living an incredibly active life, Nia had that mindset, and I don’t know if this expresses her appreciation for the backing term can be considered as negative for she receives from her family. “They show some, but as a pabida student, I always love me that it’s alright because this is for my the spotlight. As long as I know that I can own personal growth. I’m thankful to have handle something, I would be up to it,” she such a supportive family, and I believe it is said. extremely important to have both emotional and financial support from people who will Since her senior high school days, Nia has always be by your side no matter what.” been an active participant in both internal and external organizations. “If I see an While balancing her LIACOM program, opportunity to contribute, I won’t shy away Nia also works full-time as a Chief Justice—a from it. I want to organize, to have a role job she finds to be both fulfilling and and make use of the skills I have mastered,” challenging. She remembers the time they she mused, recalling the various events got their first decision with her at the helm; she has poured her efforts to make them it involved interpreting a petition. This was successful. the moment when she realized how difficult the task was, yet she knew at her core that Though Nia recognizes the importance she should remain objective despite some of her extracurricular activities, she sectors of the university not receiving the acknowledges the sacrifice that comes with verdict kindly. “The explanation there was: them. The “opportunity cost”, a concept what we’re doing in the University Student from her Economics subject, of her efforts Government is a simulation of what’s is the time she has to spend away from her happening to the national government,” family. She recalls, with a tinge of regret, she stated. the occasions when she had to be absent from important family events ever since she Even with her agile and vigorous spirit, was a freshman, such as her Lolo’s birthday. she sometimes battles with self-doubt. To 11

Life motto: With her newfound power and all the work she has done for her community, she remembers one particular contribution that has had a lasting effect: “My training and leadership experiences with La Salle and Bacolod-based organizations allowed me to make a difference in my hometown, Buena Vista, Himamaylan.” She fondly recalls the time she lobbied her ideas to the Sangguniang Kabataan officials to implement a series of projects that put her knowledge into practice. She also shares how other officials continued the work she started, surprised that her actions had a ripple effect. combat this, she turns to her mother and sisters for their simple, clichéd, yet powerful advice: “Never give up.” It’s her weapon to help her overcome these moments of uncertainty, and she is actively working to move forward. At 23, she reflects on her 13-year-old self. She believes her younger self would be filled with pride at the person she has become. “[My 13-year-old self] was irrational and tended to act on things rapidly. But now, I would not let my sudden emotions or height of negativity affect my judgment. In terms of reflection, I would never veer away from my past because it has made me today,” she said as she recognizes that she is still growing and evolving, never ceasing to learn and unlearn. 12

“My personal advocacy, which was a modified version of the one from Dakila’s mission, is that the youth are participating in a human rights-based democratic governance. It is a vision that can be idealistic, but many organizations that oil the wheels of this vision make the goal achievable,” she said, highlighting the idea that as long as you know that you can do something, then do something. As Nia departs from the institution, she shares her wisdom in three layers: personal, interrelational, and general. For her personal lesson, she imparts, “Whenever there are self-doubts, always think of your achievements, the things that you’ve done that have made you proud. Naturally, those doubts will fade. Always be hungry for something new; always have that hunger for knowledge.” With the next lesson, she encourages Lasallians to never be afraid of making connections: “Never be afraid to initiate things because sometimes those people are also waiting for you. From that initiation that you started and the connection that you’ve made, you can actually affect them positively with your initiative to do something.” Finally, underscoring her love for the community, she adds, “As a Lasallian, what you can do is transcend your abilities and knowledge from the training that you’ve had in La Salle. Don’t limit yourself to the corners of the campus, but try to apply it outside. Try to create something sustainable and powerful for the community.” With all that said and done, Nia reveals that putting passion into practice fulfills her truest desire—empowering herself by empowering others. 13

words by Alyssa Nicole T. Maquiran photos by Febry Anne D. Eduvane The traditional Filipino folk song hums, “Magtanim ay ‘di biro”, but Jason Labarete would go on to plant and harvest more than just rice. In four years, he would sow the seeds of his hard work, grit, and determination, and nurture a new legacy of his own: being the first in his family to graduate with a college degree. Struggling with the aftermath of a broken family, eight-year-old Jason and his two younger siblings packed up their things and left the bustling streets of Manila for the vast fields of Binalbagan, Negros Occidental where they lived with their maternal grandmother. A newly-single parent, his mother worked in Boracay until she eventually flew to Kuwait to work as a housekeeper when he was in Grade 7. However, working in an authoritarian Middle Eastern country also meant that the allowance from his mother faced delays. While his classmates rejoiced in playing patintero, 13-year-old Jason was already out on the fields under 14

the blistering heat of the sun, hoisting College of Arts and Sciences sacks of grains twice his weight to earn a measly wage of five to 20 pesos. He even dream of becoming a lawyer. He originally compared one of his farthest distances planned to study at the University of Negros walking to the university’s amphitheater all Occidental - Recoletos, but the college the way to Grace Pharmacy and back. didn’t have a PolSci program anymore and La Salle was the only university offering the For four years until senior high school, course. Accompanied by his girlfriend’s Jason would balance the tightrope between mother, Jason made the trip to Bacolod to school and work, often stumbling from take his entrance exam where he sealed his the weight of it all. Still, the breadwinner fate. soldiered on—not for himself, but for his three siblings who knew nothing other than Entering a foreign territory where wallets to look up to their older brother. “There were used to reserve tables, the then- were days where we wouldn’t have any freshman realized he would have another, food in our pantry and I really pitied my much bigger obstacle to face: culture shock. siblings,” he lamented. “I stopped worrying about myself and reminded myself that I’m After barely clutching his senior high doing this for them.” school diploma, Jason was dumped with As his peers debated on which college 15 course they would take, Jason was wondering if he would even have the privilege of going to college at all. Money was already limited enough as it is, and moving away for college also meant leaving behind his siblings and grandmother to fend for themselves. “It came to a point where I asked myself: Should I still study? Or should I just work?” he recalled. In his moment of uncertainty, the young boy considered enrolling in the Philippine Military Academy, where a high school diploma could land him a starting position as a cadet. After all, the rice paddies were Jason’s version of a boot camp, and his years of toiling in the fields provided him with the training he needed to join the ranks. Deep in his heart, a part of him still wanted to continue studying; but Jason also needed to face the reality that their budget was tight. With his mother’s unconditional support abroad, he took a leap of faith and had his heart set on AB Political Science with the

case studies, promulgations, and republic adjust to a different learning environment, acts—most of which were complicated but this time, with just his mobile data. “I amalgamations of English and Latin. “I was actually dropped from one of my classes had to make the extra effort to build my because of problems with my attendance,” comprehension level,” Jason explained. “I he admitted as he is currently retaking the struggled to build my skills so I could catch subject in his fourth year. up to my classmates and I won’t get left behind.” Yet, Jason was no stranger to hard work and was already well-versed in the language His adjustment to studying on campus, of perseverance. Like his days of harvesting however, was short-lived when the pandemic in the field, he was once again ready to forced everyone to work from home and reap the fruit of his labors after making it Jason returned to his hometown for online into the Dean’s List during his second and classes. Living in a far-flung municipality like third years. Back when studying in college Binalbagan, the cellular signal was scarce seemed to be something he could only and the student would once again have to achieve in another life, he couldn’t dream 16

of an achievement bigger than being the COLLEGE OF ARTS AND SCIENCES first Labarete to graduate with a college diploma. When the burden of putting on a resilient mask gets too much, Jason is most himself when he’s hitting notes with his guitar, flute, and most recently, piano. Pairing his musical prowess with physical activities, the self-taught musician can also bust some moves, shoot hoops, and spike a volleyball. He took these hobbies with him to college, where he both joined dancesport during Animolympics and sang in the College of Arts and Sciences Diamond Show when he was in his first year. Nearing the finish line, the senior is now looking into taking up supplemental courses to teach Social Studies to either junior or senior high school students. Lately, he volunteers for their local church in Binalbagan and helps out in their Sunday activities, which served as an avenue to hone his teaching skills. For a time, getting an education felt more like a privilege than a right—even when it shouldn’t be. Helping the younger generation learn and giving them the resources they need to reach their potential is Jason’s way of paying the universe forward for all the blessings he’s received, both big and small. 17

words by AC Himaya V. Tupas photos by Phoebe Daidoji Q. Jabonete Just when we thought rainbows could only be seen hovering upon the bright shimmering skies with their glorious spectacle of colors, sometimes they can also be seen personified into human form, their light reflected through a walking prismatic soul. These rainbows have a name, a dream, a story—and without us realizing it, they are the ones standing, speaking, and shedding their chroma within the four corners of the classroom. Hailing from the smallest college with the biggest hearts—the College of Education (CEd)—future Lasallian educator and English major Philander Brainard Flores profoundly sees himself as a living rainbow, one who sprinkles vibrant hues of inspiration, radiant blends of hope, and vivid rays of joy to others. For him, he wants to be the red, the orange, the yellow, the green, the blue, and the violet— the rainbow of his students’ lives. But what truly makes this CEd graduate a kaleidoscopic soul? 18

Among the color spectrum, red is College of Education perhaps the brightest in Philander’s palette. Shades of love, passion, and courage are his greatest driving forces as he delves into a world of uncertainty. It was around the tender age of eight when Philander first discovered his love for teaching, as he always enjoyed doing playful simulations of school classes in their neighborhood with him as the teacher and his little playmates as the students. He would play-act the typical teaching lines and vernaculars, tell stories and legends to his so-called students, present Math flashcards made out of cardboard, provide random notebooks and books, and even keep a class record inscribed with his learners’ names and grades! Little did the now 22-year-old Philander know that all those were a subtle foreshadowing of the kind of passion he is bound to fulfill today. When he looks back at such things, he claims he could only be left in awe and couldn’t help but be proud of himself for his courage in heeding the call for teaching. Rays of yellow and orange are also exuded in the future educator’s persona—with beams of warmth, optimism, and creative energy shining through. As a social butterfly who loves interpersonal interactions, he believes that teaching is a great platform where he could utilize these skills and positively influence children and other people. Moreover, Philander is someone with polychromatic passions, since apart from his ardor for education, he is also into a handful of creative fields including dancing, hosting, make-up, drag performing, and acting. Combining all these talents, he hopes to inspire people with who he is and who he will be as an educator while letting students discover their potential 19

and unleash their creativity, skills, and yet at that time. Despite this, Philander talents through his guidance. For him, he chose to challenge himself and persisted envisions himself as a teacher who creates to grow in any way he could to reach his a safe space where students are learning ambitions. Upon reminiscing everything while also having fun. he has gone through, he emphasizes that things feel very heartwarming and humbling Green tones that cast tinges of life, growth, knowing what he has done and become. and harmony grace Philander’s life as well. He is grateful not only for his friends, family, He narrates that ever since he was a kid, he teachers, and God but also for himself was already filled with much energy, fun, because he was able to nurture the things and playfulness. However, he claims that he and lessons that the former imparted to wasn’t rooted in his confidence as a person him. 20 Despite the sprightly band of colors that dazzle the rainbow, Philander’s spirit, as any other human’s, also holds blue overtones and bleak clouds of dejection. He shares that for him, his overall journey was not a piece of cake as some people disheartened him, including a former teacher who discouraged him from pursuing education because he didn’t see him fit in such a field. Furthermore, he also encounters judgment and discrimination as a member of the LGBTQIA+ community due to the stigma, misconceptions, and prejudicial image directed toward gay educators. He adds that he believes in setting limitations and following policies on this matter, but not to the point of suppressing one’s expression and identity. For him, he wants to build mutual respect as a teacher, but this can

only be possible when students and other people respect him as well. Despite these obstacles, Philander chose to overcome the gloom and indulge in the bright violet streaks that burst with wisdom, spirituality, and abundance. Now that he is bound to another journey beyond the premises of the University of St. La Salle, he is firm that the university has molded him in a way that motivated him to promote a positive impact on others. Moreover, he believes that through the teachings of St. John Baptist de La Salle, which he grasped over the years, he truly learned how to teach minds, touch hearts, and transform lives as well as reach out to the last, the lost, and the least. After all, compassion, the spirit of volunteerism and service, and faith in God are his most treasured learnings in college. He reckons that wherever destiny may lead him, he will bring the kind of spirituality molded by La Salle into his future endeavors. Moving forward on his pilgrimage, Philander’s foremost aim after he graduates is to ensure financial stability for himself and his family. He fervently wishes to achieve his dreams and do what he loves while grabbing all possible opportunities along the way. After all, he trusts that if one is passionate in their field, growth, and success will follow thereafter. For this living rainbow, he was simply embellishing all his colors amidst the shadowy storms he came across, and now, he is more than ready to make these pigments shine brighter than ever upon proving that he is all the colors at once— at full brightness. Until then, he will keep on looking at the band of hues aloft the heavens then staring at the flamboyant figure in the mirror—knowing that they are both just as majestic in pouring their shades of rhapsody for the whole world to see. 21

words by Rieden Denielle N. Cuadra photos by Febry Anne D. Eduvane A visionary. A foundation. A leader. That’s who she is to the College of Education. Exuding an aura of intimidation—she is meticulous in her planning and execution, yet still adaptable enough to handle the unprecedented. Meet Christine Joy M. Portillo, the College of Education Governor. What sets her apart is her resourceful approach to leading. As she says, “The council is not just planning activity after activity. We conduct activities with a purpose and we’ve planned it way ahead of time.” This sense of purpose is evident in the initiatives she undertakes as a student leader. Her journey as a student leader began in elementary school. Nervous about speaking in public and let alone socializing, she strived to get out of her comfort and looked towards something greater than her fears. This 22

perseverance started her climb, from being As Christine shared, “The first time I heard College of Education a batch representative in her first year in about the Ata tribe was through a story. I had college—to becoming the governor in her the idea of the tribe in mind, but after going last. there and seeing them, they have widened my perspective.” She hopes to apply the Being governor involves preparing for the Ata tribe’s learnings to her future students, worst; her most challenging obstacle. She saying, “I want to instill in them that the emphasized that they think about all the world doesn’t revolve around the school possible problems and resolve them before or the four walls of the classroom. We just making any initiatives come to life. Despite need to explore, accept, and include those these challenges, she is most proud of her who are outside of it.” LAKBAY-ATA Project, where she was able to educate people about the Ata tribe and Apart from her student leadership, educate the Ata tribe themselves. Christine is also determined to maintain 23

and dramas,” she pauses, trying to find the words by imitating speaking motions with her hands, “and chit-chatting with my friends.” Looking back, as someone who went through dodgy relationships and friendships, she only wishes that her first- year self never had to go through them. “People are going to judge you anyway so you might as well do what you want,” she flexed, citing a quote from Taylor Swift. After making it through the Lasallian gauntlet from junior and senior high school all the way to college, she offers a value instilled from 10 years of being a Lasallian: “I’ve learned that we’re not just her academic scholarship. She believes that she cannot go a day without doing anything productive, and that “even if it’s half-starting my duties and responsibilities, getting started is what’s important.” To her, sacrifice is a big word. So she neither compromises her studies nor council duties—even if it means using her free time. Yet behind the sharp, feline eyes that people misinterpret as maldita, Christine is also: A daughter you can be proud of. A friend you can laugh with. A classmate to seek when you’re lost. When dusk sets and she’s back to regular Christine, she makes sure to first and foremost destress. “Every after-duty hour, I reward myself by eating and watching vlogs 24

being molded to become critical thinkers, COLLEGE OF EDUCATION but along with that we’re being reminded to be socially-responsible Christians and effective communicators in between.” She does not deny that Lasallians are competent, yet she also reminds us that this competence must come with compassion. To Christine, though Lasallian themselves should shine, they must also help others’ lights to break through—a sentiment that echoes her learnings from her time with the Ata tribe. “You let other people be in the spotlight, with you being the helping hand,” Christine entailed. From immersing herself to the bigger reality of the outside world, separating herself from what’s comfortable to serve the common good, and starting from the roots to end at the top, Christine is the hallmark of having the last, the lost, and the least in her heart. Not only does she know the Lasallian mantra all too well—she is determined to live by it. 25

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words by Drexel John N. Amit photos by Esther Joyce M. Limbaña No, this is not a recipe for a crimson- colored layer cake with cream cheese frosting. Graduating BS Chemical Engineering student John Patrick Tagle is an avid ReVeluv—the fandom of the South Korean girl group, Red Velvet. Just like any girl group stan, Patrick diligently streams every song release, saves up to buy albums, and becomes enthralled whenever he pulls the photocard of his bias, Seulgi. In fact, during vacant periods, you would often see him shaking his legs to the group’s 2019 hit “Zimzalabim” or listening to their every album—no skips. However, Patrick’s attachment to the group goes beyond the catchy tunes, viral dance challenges, and meaningful music videos. For him, listening to Red Velvet songs is a coping mechanism as his college journey resembles the subtle, yet vibrant, discography of the group. 28

Rookie College of Engineering and Technology Patrick knew that enrolling in a program that was unrelated to his senior high school strand of Cookery under the Technical- Vocational-Livelihood track would prove to be challenging. However, much like in the song “Rookie”, he was willing to do everything just to achieve his dream of becoming a chemical engineer. Hailing from a by-the-sea barangay in the municipality of Valladolid, studying at a private university in the city was a complete culture shock to Patrick. In his words, “It’s like I’m attending war with only a jackstone in my hands.” But this was the least of his worries. Being a non-Science, Technology, Engineering, and Mathematics senior high graduate, his admission to the chemical engineering department came with conditions. The program’s department chair put him on probation and he had to achieve a general weighted average of above 80 without failing any subjects for one semester. Not only that, but the department also imposed a retention policy that automatically revokes students of their eligibility for the course, should they fail a major subject. Diving right through the battlefield, Patrick eventually saw familiarity in the path he took: it was similar to cooking where you mix ingredients to create palatable dishes. This time, however, he was mixing coffee, creamer, and sugar to help him pull another 29

all-nighter. Patrick is not one to back down, unfamiliar route. To his surprise, the second though, as he traversed his path of flunked semester flew by. According to him: “It was quizzes and barely passing term grades. like playing darts blindfolded. Only this time, I finally knew where the board was.” After some time, he finally found his Finally knowing how the game worked, footing and with the help of his newfound Patrick was able to reap the fruits of his friends and classmates, he was able to persistence after qualifying for the coveted clutch his freshman year being one of dean’s list award that semester all the while the only nineteen chemical engineering securing his hard-earned spot in chemical students surviving. engineering. Russian Roulette Dumb Dumb Come sophomore year, Patrick knew Just when Patrick thought he finally he was ready to gamble. However, with a knew the ins and outs of his program, he pandemic stopping him in his tracks, there was confronted with an all-too-familiar was only so much he could do. He first dilemma: the difficulties of online classes. tested the waters during their qualifying When you are combating seven hours exam: if he passed the said test, then he was of classes per day (two of which are unit going all in—which he did. So, he continued operation courses, not including review betting, trying his luck against fundamental and research), recorded Zoom lectures and subjects and the online modality. When the Canvas modules no longer sufficed. At this first semester was over, he felt like he could point, everything just seemed robotic to finally raise the stakes as the retention Patrick: he woke up early and stayed up late policy was only applicable until the second at night trying to finish his tasks. semester of the second year. One good thing that their research class With this, he slowly overcame the brought, though, was a glimmer of hope that insecurities that arose by taking up the normalcy was in sight. They were allowed to 30

enter the premises of the university to use the laboratories for their experimentation. Amidst the draining schedule and the back-breaking load, he was simply ecstatic to finally see his classmates again. This restored his much-needed energy which led to his thesis group not only surviving their research but acing it with a publication recommendation from their instructor. Queendom Senior year was the final leg of Patrick’s college journey, and with things returning to normal, his odds seem auspicious. On the first day of the semester, he found himself back at square one, but also carrying with him the experiences he garnered over the past three years—like making friendships and taking pauses from academics from time to time. With a 7.5-lb Perry’s Chemical Engineers’ Handbook on one hand and a Casio fx-991ES PLUS calculator on the other, he braved through the final pieces of the puzzle that was his program’s curriculum. Similar to the concept of the song “Queendom”, Patrick aspires to be an ordinary student extraordinarily accomplishing his goals without compromising his happiness. Ultimately, he only hopes that he achieves the same storyline of celebration after overcoming the hardships of his program. With a few months left until graduation, this future seems feasible. Patrick’s college journey, much like Red Velvet’s discography, is an emotional rollercoaster. It gave him “Happiness” at some point but it also surprised him like “Peek-A-Boo” at times. There were moments when he felt like going “Psycho” but he always got by to “Power Up”. In the end, much like any Red Velvet album, he is enthusiastic to reminisce about every moment of his college life—no skips. 31

words by Adrianne H. Saplagio photos by John Brainard G. Uberas Storms are inevitable in life—they bring seemingly unending sorrow and, sometimes, require us to offer unimaginable sacrifices. But what if life just keeps throwing you curveball after curveball? For how long could you fight forward then? On April 12, 1995, an epitome of resilience was born. Jhustine Cañete was raised by his mother, Helen, who had been working as a technician at an American semiconductor company for 15 years in Lapu-Lapu City, Cebu. As he was brought up by a single mother who had to work over 12 hours a day to support her family, Jhustine learned about independence quicker than any of us had to. In fact, he had to walk alone for around two miles daily just to get to his school in third grade. Years later, his mother met Robert Anthony, a Brit who worked as a freelance graphic designer. The two ended up moving to Negros Occidental with both Robert’s daughter 32

and Jhustine, also getting married of her full-time, to which Jhustine obliged College of Engineering and Technology soon after. A few months later, the wholeheartedly. “I didn’t hesitate at all— family welcomed the birth of Eliza if I were to be asked the same question, who, unfortunately, carried Robert’s my answer would be the same, with no hereditary condition. Eliza was able hesitation,” he says. to walk for the first few years of her life but now requires a wheelchair for In the next three years, Helen’s condition mobility. Regardless, the family loved worsened. The tumor recurred a few months her unconditionally, and Jhustine after her first surgery, and Jhustine found took on the role of a reliable older himself clutching his mom’s hand tightly at brother seamlessly. 3 in the morning as she prepared for her second surgery. Heartbreakingly, though it With the expenses split between was successful, Helen was no longer able the couple, Helen no longer needed to give out cognitive responses afterward. to work overtime five days a week She spent two more weeks in the ICU and and was able to spend some quality held her last breath two months later, in time with her children. Inspired by his mom and influenced by his friends, 33 Jhustine enrolled at the Technological University of the Philippines-Visayas (TUP-V), taking up Electronics and Communications Engineering. At this point, everything was going relatively well, but regrettably, life doesn’t always go as smoothly as we want it to. In 2013, the family was thrown a curveball when Helen was diagnosed to have a slow-growing tumor in her head. “After finding that out, I couldn’t take my college seriously—from being competitive to being someone who let bygones be bygones,” Jhustine shared. After finishing his first year of college at TUP-V, he transferred to the University of St. La Salle. It was during this period that Helen started having epileptic symptoms. The family started to struggle financially as the budget leaned towards her medication, so Jhustine felt privileged to be able to keep going with his studies at USLS. At the end of his second year of college in 2014, Helen requested that he take care

July 2017. “I’d say that was the lowest of “The same thing happened—we were the lows I ever had. A hopeless hole to struggling emotionally, mentally, and be in, drowned with hospital debt as well financially during those times. I was more as losing the person you wanted to give resilient to this kind of situation but it still back to the most,” Jhustine states. He was really hurt,” Jhustine shares. Painfully, the diagnosed with clinical depression due to family lost Robert a few weeks before the the tragic event but eventually went back to OJT season started. Considering Jhustine college in 2019 after gradually recovering. received his confirmation letter for his internship at Texas Instruments Philippines a Another three years passed, and now day after his stepfather’s passing, it became everything was as it should be again. a very bittersweet experience for him. He Jhustine was flourishing academically, ended up having to work through his grief impressing both classmates and teachers and process both his internship documents alike with his intelligence and dedication and Robert’s death certificate at the same to his studies. Unfortunately, in mid-2022, time. Robert was diagnosed with stage 3 colon cancer. 34

COLLEGE OF ENGINEERING Nonetheless, Jhustine was able to 35 successfully complete his internship at the company and now plans to take the board exam in October 2023. His classmates continue to look up to him as a role model and he continues to strive to be the best at what he does. “I’m fortunate to have had those kinds of experiences, good and bad; they taught me a lot and changed me a lot for sure. Now I strive to be better than my previous self, driven by my passion, and lifted by my responsibilities,” he starts. “My past will always be a part of me and keep me grounded so I don’t worry that much about anything else except my sister and her future. I do have regrets, though,” Jhustine says. “So to anyone who’s reading this random cluster of words—do what’s awkward to do, love your loved ones, and tell them how much they mean even if you had misunderstandings—life cannot be bought with any currency and neither can time itself.” As Jhustine continues to brave through the adversities in life, he proceeds to keep the memories of his mother and stepfather in his heart. No matter the misfortune and heartbreak, it is important to keep in mind all the reasons we have to push forward in this life of storms, sorrows, and sacrifices.

words by James Aldrin C. Pamposa photos by Learn D. Flores Amid a society that buries imperfections, some proudly stand up against the stigma. One such individual is determined to make a positive impact on her community. This is the story of a strong woman, a fighter, and an inspiration to many. Juliet Angeline Alvarez is a beauty queen, and more importantly—an advocate. As a self-proclaimed “fat kid” growing up, she had many encounters with body shaming, especially when she joined the pageant industry before being crowned Lin-ay Sang Sipalay in 2019. She was constantly criticized for her body and appearance, and those words had a lasting impact on her. These bitter experiences affected her self-esteem but also made her aware of the adverse effects of words and actions toward others. It was through this that Juliet learned the importance of self-acceptance and the power of positivity. She realized 36

Yu An Log - College of Business and Accountancy the need for individuals to embrace and As this beauty queen delved deeper into celebrate their differences. As a result, she her pursuits, she realized that balancing has since become a strong advocate for her public image and advocacy work was body positivity and has made it her mission a delicate process. Being transparent and to empower individuals to feel confident in staying true to herself became vital in their skin. Juliet has been using her platform balancing the two. But Juliet prioritizes in pageants to spread awareness—inspiring her extracurricular activities as a student and encouraging young girls to love and leader and manages her time effectively accept themselves just as they are, showing to avoid compromising one over the other. that true beauty comes from within and not She ensures that her endeavors align with from fitting into society’s narrow standards. her values and principles while being strategic in how she presents her work to But that’s not all. Juliet’s venture also stems the community. from her experiences with poor governance as she understands the importance of press 37 freedom. As a former campus journalist and Online Writer for The Spectrum, she has witnessed, firsthand, the impact of good and bad governance on the community. She knows how the power of the media can hold accountable those in positions of authority for their actions. This inspired her to use her voice and platform to shed light on issues that matter to her and her fellow Lasallians.

For her, presenting a positive public boils down to deciding what you want to image is important for credibility as a prioritize and managing your time well.” role model, but she also needs to remain She says that it is essential to take a break authentic to her goals. “I feel that if you when needed and that prioritizing self- truly and genuinely want to help other care is important—rest and persistence are people, and not just for the sake of essential in overcoming these challenges recognition, reward, or even fame, then I and coming back stronger. think public image would be the least of your concern[s],” she expressed. One of Juliet’s proudest initiatives was tending to Sipalaynons affected by Typhoon But it’s not always smooth sailing. Burnout Odette during her reign as the Lin-ay Sang and imposter syndrome are common Sipalay 2019 by gathering relief goods experiences in a student’s life, and Juliet such as food, clothing, and clean drinking has had her fair share of those moments. “I water every day to distribute to different actually had to give up being a Spectre and barangays and communities. This made being a writer for The Spectrum, not just her realize the impact of small initiatives for my academics, but as I’ve said, for my in empowering communities. As she put extracurricular activities,” Juliet conveyed. it: “It made such a big impact on my life “But at the end of the day, I think it just all because I had witnessed how devastating it 38

was for other people. And so being able to 39 help them, even just through the smallest of ways, is very fulfilling and life-changing for me” She believes that even the smallest act of kindness can make a big difference and bring hope to those who need it most. This inspired her to continue finding ways to serve her community and positively influence other people. Juliet has found inspiration in Miss Universe 2018 Catriona Gray, who has effectively used her platform for social change. As a fellow advocate, she looks up to Gray as a role model in using her influence for the greater good. Juliet agrees that it is vital to use her efforts as motivation to continue making a difference in one’s community. By sharing her journey and experiences, she hopes she can also inspire others to use their platform and influence for positive change. On the other side of being a beauty queen, an advocate, and a community leader, Juliet is a shy girl that would rather read books at home than socialize with other people. At the end of the day, she is just a simple young woman who has gone through a lot of challenges and decides to keep going. Her journey began with personal experiences that shaped her perspective and fueled her desire for change, and her experiences have made her a passionate advocate for body positivity, good governance, and press freedom. Through her efforts, she hopes to empower others to embrace their uniqueness and inspire positive change in their own communities. Juliet Angeline Alvarez—a woman driven by a desire for change and a passion for empowering others. She understands that the road to change is long and challenging, but is more than committed to persevering.

words by Gem Francin R. Diola photos by Febry Anne D. Eduvane Through the timeless era that is art, it is believed that the artist will always need a muse. No matter how different it is to the eye, the strokes, blends, and colors caress the canvas in comfort and familiarity—with her pale countenance, smiling eyes, and distinctly soft features—the artist finds herself in her muse. Born to a Taiwanese mother and a Chinese-Filipino father, Hazel Mae Uy was raised and educated in the Philippines. With biracial roots stemming from a family of entrepreneurs, Hazel always knew her life was already set for business. “They [would] tell me what course I will take, what I shall do, what clubs to join,” she revealed, and even during the meagerness of youth, she felt like everything was already held up for her in life. Before taking up the Humanities and Social Sciences track in Liceo- De La Salle, she considered herself 40

“a nobody”. As someone who Yu An Log - College of Business and Accountancy aspired to become a sociable person achieving things she wasn’t able to in her previous school, senior high school Hazel joined Liceo’s Filipino publication Berdeng Parola as a layout artist and photojournalist where she thrived in the aperture of student journalist life. Although it was inevitable that the Liceo years would come to an end, and with the soul for service building up as a new-found interest, Hazel wore her brand new freshman uniform and took the route to BS in Business Administration with a Major in Marketing. Stepping into a room full of faces she had not seen in HUMSS, most of the people in Hazel’s class already had their social circles. Through this unfamiliar place in search of someone willing to give her a chance, the first day of class meant opening up to changes and meeting classmates who had guessing games about her nationality. “I find it funny because someone approached me and asked if I’m Japanese, Korean, [or] Chinese,” she shared. “I said, I am none of them! I am Taiwanese.” For an underdog creative who eventually got elected as class mayor during the first year, Hazel carried the responsibility and pressure of doing all things at once for everyone—even being called a certified “teacher’s pet” in her attempt to appease the demands. Apart from the building emotional toll, Hazel burned her midnight oil studying each page’s nooks and crannies to know all the lessons by heart. “I’m not an academically-gifted person and I’ve always studied really 41

hard more than others. I have this anxiety if I classroom, Hazel remembers being poked feel I can’t remember the important terms,” fun at by a professor who frantically shouted she expressed. “COVID!” when she sneezed mid-lecture. Having been vulnerable to these jests, no Every day by seven in the morning, matter how consciously or unconsciously she prepared not only for the hustles of it was brought up in between dialogues, academic life but to greet questioning eyes Hazel would choose to shrug and laugh it of discernment. off. “I have grown [used to] it already. I’ve accepted that I’m different with my culture, Hazel frequently passed by comments my practices, my etiquette,” she affirmed. calling her “Chinese Lao Lao” or gibberish statements that made her uncomfortable: Known to show up as an early bird, Hazel “Personally, I feel hurt because I didn’t admitted that she is shocked by the culture do anything wrong to them, and they just of Filipino time. The first time this happened tease me because of my appearance. I was when she messaged her group mates just kept quiet.” No matter how conscious that they would meet at 10 A.M. to discuss a or unconsciously thrown, the grave thing group project, but before she knew it, it was about jokes is how it enforces something already noon and no one had arrived yet. small like mere differences in physical “Everything here in the Philippines is very appearance into a laughingstock, then slow. In Taiwan, everything is very fast-paced. takes the currency of approval from others The transportation, internet, and service,” who feed on its unsolicited amusement. Hazel continued. While this came as a shock, the years have graced her with patience, and Plagued by discrimination everywhere, Hazel became fond of the people and their may it be in the streets or inside the culture while reflecting more on herself too. 42

Among the many parts that make her who she is, Hazel takes pride in her ancestry— may it be in her keen eye for the practicality that runs in her family, in her religion as a practicing Buddhist, or in her language for speaking straight Mandarin with her parents over a phone call. Now in her remaining months as a senior, Hazel looks back to admire how far she made it since her freshman days: “Being a different person, you will always attract a lot of people who may tend to use you for their own gains or become genuinely friends with you. [...] It’s better that you’re able to experience it all, and you will be able to learn from all the experiences you had here and apply it in the future.” Beyond the image of a loving daughter, academically-inclined student leader, and an interracial Lasallian, Hazel takes up the long-haired sable—streaks of warm pastel along the hushes of the afternoon beach where orange sunsets meet the serenity of waves—her safe space. No matter which country she may be in, she believes this world is an amazing place to live in. Brushing the final stroke of her college years, the artist takes a final look at her portrait that reminds fellow hopefuls that it is fine to be unsure where the next stop is. It is what we do to overcome the world that defines us—with what little we know, with how much we are willing to do. For in the words of our foreign muse herself: I’d say, just go for it. 43

words by Sophia Yzabelle F. Gico photos by Kyle Jobe B. De Guzman Who is Nisa Nuggets anyways? Facebook, Tiktok, Instagram—you name it, she’s in it! I mean, who doesn’t know the famous Nisa Nuggets with over 341k subscribers on YouTube? Well, through the camera aperture, she’s known as a fun, happy-go-lucky person who treasures her friends and loved ones. But who is she once the curtains are closed? While she may be popularly known by her stage name, her real first name is Anisa. Her surname, however, is not known to many because she likes to keep it a mystery—it’s for her to know and for us to never find out. She’s a 21-year-old YouTuber and a graduating nursing student on the side. After being home-schooled for almost half her life, she thought that it would always be the case, but she’s been with the Lasallian community for six 44

though her subscribers and followers are College of Nursing increasing by the minute, Anisa keeps her feet on the ground. As a student, Anisa claims that all she does is the bare minimum—no competition, no pressure, just vibes. Her vlogs show how bubbly she is and how she enjoys going out with her friends—all of these are who she truly is off-camera. All she wants is to have fun and live her life to the fullest, and if she ever gets the chance to talk to her younger self, the first thing she would say is “Oh my gosh, naka graduate ka!” In the past, Anisa had low hopes that she’d ever get to go to college, and the thought of what specific college course she was going to take kept clouding her mind. After eventually settling into BS Nursing, the thought of shifting courses even years already and enjoys walking through the crowded hallways, eating in the buzzing Stingers cafeteria, and especially meeting new people. Everyone is entitled to their own ways of coping with stress—some may go hiking or traveling, but for Anisa, it’s vlogging. She said vlogging made her more active and drove her to explore the beauty of the outside world. Her first ever vlog which she uploaded on April 13, 2018 was a Shopee haul entitled “SHOPEE HAUL MGA MARE”—a humble beginning that bloomed and fostered her platform to what it is today. Vlogging didn’t only make her socially active but deposited money in her bank account as well—a perk that she doesn’t deny that she loves. But even 45

crossed her. When she was young, she was the sleepless nights reviewing or the high the type of person who could never finish grades will not suffice if you are not having what she started. But now, she can hold her fun. She’s also had phases where she was at head up high and say that she has indeed the edge of giving up but mustered every done it. College, together with YouTube, bit of strength she had left—of course, with has molded young Anisa to grow mentally, her family and friends cheering her on—to emotionally, and physically, inspiring a lot finish what she started; and guess what, she of young individuals who have watched her did. grow throughout her journey. Scrolling through social media, a lot of Anisa translates to an Arabic name that memes about fake friendships or friendship means “one whose words are consoling.” A failures flood the newsfeed which most lot of her fans seek her counsel, telling her users claim to relate to, but Anisa shows that they don’t want to go to college or that her viewers the value of friendship. It is they want to shift courses, but she always evident in her vlogs that she and her friends tells them that college is not that bad and to always have fun. She reiterates this over and over again because sometimes 46

share the same energy and interests, which makes a lot of her viewers tell her that they also want a friendship like theirs. It may not be known to many, but Anisa started vlogging because she didn’t have friends, and that’s why she wants to show in her vlogs how to cherish her friends. She also wants everybody to know that having the right circle of friends can make college life a whole lot easier. After graduation, Anisa wants to study for her nursing board exam while still enjoying her passion, vlogging. She wants to continue inspiring others through her vlogs while doing things on her bucket list, like swimming on the beach and traveling around the Philippines. But whatever Anisa may be doing or wherever she may be, she will continue to show us who Nisa Nuggets is—a humble, kind, and happy-go-lucky person who cherishes her friends and family like no other. 47

words by Jenny G. Millares photos by Kyle Jobe B. De Guzman Do you believe in the old rhetorical saying, “A pessimist says the glass is half empty, but an optimist says that it is half full?” People’s perspectives are usually split into two ends: individuals who see the silver lining regarded as treasures to society and those who favor the gloom as stumbling blocks that lack enthusiasm. It was going through a thrilling roller coaster ride of uncertainty, doubts, and skepticism that made happy-go-lucky yet goal- oriented Christian Ray Rendaje confess that he once saw life as half empty. Raised in a discipline-centered environment, the graduating Bachelor of Science in Nursing student had to bear the responsibility of being the eldest by learning to take on the household chores at an early age and being a good role model to his younger siblings. As the only son, he mastered maneuvering his way through the swarm of problems while standing 48

Thriving in academics while serving as College of Nursing the leader of his college, Christian had as the subordinate pedestal of their family. been a resident in the council and different While some of his peers buried themselves organizations since he was in high school. in various interests fueled by impulsivity, In his first two college years, however, he Christian admits to being a homebody that decided to take a hiatus and focus solely sails the river of potential at his own pace. on his studies to experience what being a Although his childhood dream was to “normal” student feels like. But when he initially become an astronaut and fearlessly was supposed to reorganize his priorities explore outer space, a part of him has and sleep guilt-free, never did he expect always wanted to work in the medical field to drown in an overflowing amount of because of the influence made by his family difficulties. of nurses. Waking up to chronic emptiness is not Christian, 22, is the incumbent College something that anyone wishes to experience. of Nursing governor who balances his Christian didn’t want it either, but that’s academic load, leadership duties, and what he came across. Upon stepping into social life equally because he believes that his sophomore year, his life went on a what’s important is how a person balances downward spiral after he was diagnosed one’s self and not just how they balance with dysthymia, a persistent depressive their time. Through his chosen course, he disorder, making it difficult for him to enjoy was able to apply the technique of “triage” even the most joyous occasions. Christian in his life by sorting out his priorities and tried to get better on his own, waking up organizing his thread of activities without everyday with hopes that he would be having to compromise small details. He instantly healed. However, he experienced defined this as a process that rations his the same feeling of emptiness on every management towards the area that is most hopeful day. With the increasing academic in need of immediate action. 49

pressure and the isolation brought about by What prevented him from asking for help the pandemic, the once teeming sanguinity at the start was the stigma inflicted by in his life drained and was replaced with society. According to an article by Center for obscurity. Christian recalled the experience Global Mental Health psychiatrist Graham of losing his sense of purpose in life— Thornicroft, only 16.5% of individuals with contemplating whether to end everything depression seek help worldwide, with or continue his hollow existence. mental health stigma being the primary reason. With the judging eyes of people It was a week full of tears and loss of during these times, discrimination against appetite that made him resort to taking mentally diagnosed people is prevalent. sleep-inducing melatonin pills to avoid Eventually, Christian, who was initially dealing with the constant sadness in his consumed by the fear of judgment, realized waking hours. One intake led to another the need for professional aid. “It is not a sin until none of it was left and Christian had no to seek professional help, so ask for it if you choice but to request more medicine from want to become [mentally and emotionally] his mother. Sitting in their living room with better,” he remarked. his back turned from his parents and hiding his emotions behind his laptop, Christian With the constant encouragement from tried resisting the lump in his throat but his mother, reaching out for psychological eventually let the dam break, unveiling help was the stepping stone for Christian’s his vulnerability in front of his family who healing process. On the 24th day of March normally perceived him as the easygoing 2021, he finally mustered the courage to secondary pillar of their abode. face whatever was holding him back through 50