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kïs ñ uÈq ;d fyar;a 7 01 ;shd ta f.d,fa ,d wdfhu;a weia f,dl= lrf.k uf.a Èyd n,df.k bkakj'' uf.a we`.u fjjq,kak mgka .;a;d' <ore lr;af; ñg wf;a we`.s<s j,ska lsá lsáfha w,a,f.k ux blaukska ta whj myq lrf.k biia ryg .fs ha uf.a weia folg kls ugj;a ta me;;a g yefrkak bvla fkd§' fï j;dfj t;k ysáfh .eyekq fokafkla'' uf.a jhfiu ú;r'' wjrq eÿ ;is a .Kka j, w. yßfha bkak .eyekq fokafkla'' ta fokakd ysáfha iañ;a idmamqj biairy'' uu t;k k;r jqfKa tl fudfyd;lg ú;rhs'' ta uf.a T¿fj nÈk f,akaiqj álla yß .iai .kak ys;df.k' ta;a B,. ;;amfrhÈu ug f;ra eKd uf.a w;ska isoaO jqfKa f,dl= je/oaola lsh,d' fudku fj,djlj;a k;r fjkak kï tmd' È.gu hkak'' T¿j ìug kjdf.ku bkak'' ldgj;a Thdj wÿr.kak bvla ;hs kak tmd'' l,d;=rlskaj;a t<shg hk yeu j;djlu uu fldfydu;a iEfykak mßiaiï fjkjd'' idmamq fiajlhskaf.hs\" uqo,a whleñhkaf.hs\" nvq .kak wdmq wks;a whf.hs weia j, ne,au u`. wer,d bkak ux mq¿jka ;rï W;aidy lrkjd' f.dvla fj,djg ux bkafk <ore lr;;a h Èydg yß uf.a miqïìh Èydg yß weia yrjf.k' t;fldg ta f.d,,a kga udj yßhlg n,d.kka neyefk' ta úÈy f,ia hs 's wdrlaIs;hs'

ksïñ uÈq ;d fyra ;a 8 ta;a wo\" uf.a T¿fj neof.k ysgmq f,akaiqj my<g rEg,d jegqKu\" uu tl fudfyd;lg T¿j Wiai,d n,k wjodku .;a;d' tfyu lf<;a fï flfyïu, wdfhu;a yß.iai.kak l,a ú;rhs' fudaä'' tal ckjdß udfi ojila' wyi uy uQi, w¿ mdglg yeß,d ;snqKd' ;shqKq yq<.la yQ lshdf.k fp,agkayeï ùÈh Èf.a yudf.k weú;a\" ksoe,af, ;snqK uf.a flia ler<s j,skau uf.a lïuq,g ;e¿jd' uf.a biairyks a w, fm;s melÜ tll ysia ljrhla fmr<s fmr<s biairyg weÿKd' uu lvidmamq myq lrf.k fõ.fhka weúof.k .sfha ta f.d,a,kaf. uQKq Èyd neß fj,dj;a n,kafk ke;sj\" tl t,fa ,u biia ry n,df.k'' t;a a ug ta f.d,,a kfa . lgyvj,a weyqKd' ta ;hs qKq lgyvj,a ms<sl=f<kqhs ;ryskqhs msß,d ;snqKd' —ta thd fkao''@ n,kakfld thdf. yeá'' uy úldrhlafk''˜ tlaflfkla lsõjd' —fmkuq jqK;a uy ÿIaG ne,,a shla jf.a''˜ ;j flfkla lsõjd' blshla weú;a uf.a W.=fr ysrjqKd' uu ;j álla fõf.ka weúoaod' tl mdrgu\" ug f.or hkak f,dl= Wjukdjla yÈiaishla we;sjqKd' wmrdfo ux wo t<shg wdfj' ug kEú;a bkakhs ;snqfK' fï .uk tkak l,ska uf.a ys;g iekis,a,la ;snqKd' i;s .dKlg miafi m<fjks j;djg fydo kskaola ksod .;a;u\" läirj jev lrkak;a Wkkÿa jla we;sfj,d ;ns qKd' i;s .dKlska ux tfyu kskoa la ksod .;af; kE' meh y;la'' Tõ' y;lau'' wka;sug ta ;rï fj,djla ksod .;af; ljoo lsh,d ug u;l;a kE' ta ;rï fj,d kos d .;a; tflka ug mÿq udldr fjkila fj,d ;ns qKd' ug oekqfK wo kï ug jev ál fydÈka lr.kak mq¿jka fjhs jf.'a t<shg .syks a w¨;a yq<x álla jeÈ,d wdj;a wj,q la fjk tlla kE lsh,d ug ys;=Kd' wdfhu;a jev lrkak mgka .kak l,ska t<shg .syks a\" ´k lrk mqxÑ mqxÑ nvq álla wrka tkak ux ys;=fj talhs'

kïs ñ uÈq ;d fyra ;a 9 ug ´k lrk foaj,a jeä yßhlau uu f.kak .;af; wka;¾cdf,ka weKjqï lr,d' ta;a lmq mq¿ka álla\" md¾i,a lrk lvodis\" mEka lÜg,hla jf.a foaj,a f.kak .kak tlg wu;r m%jdyk .dia;=jla f.jkak fjk tl;a wmrdohla' iuyr fj,djg kï tal f,dl= myiqjla jqKd' iuyr fj,djg ldgj;a fkdfmk\"S ljqrej;a udj wÿr.kafk ke;sj\" ldf.j;a /jqula ne¨ula ke;sj\" tfyu;a ke;ks ï ldf.kaj;a ys; ßfok l;djla wy.kafk ke;js t<shg .syska tkak;a ug mq¿jka jqKd' ta;a yeu ;siafiu tfyu jqfKa kE' wo kï'' fldfydugj;a kE'' oeka jyskak;a mgka wrka'' uu f.oßka t<shg tkak l,ska <ore lr;a;hg Wäka t<mq ma,diaála ljrh Wvg f,dl= f,dl= jeys ìkaÿ jefgkak mgka .;a;d' talg háka isksÿ iqÿmdg f,dau fmdfrdakdjlska jy,d' ta;a ksodf.k bkak iekav¾f. uQKhs\" ,d frdai mdghs\" l%Sï mdghs uqyq fjÉp thdf. lïuq,a fol Wäka hka;ug ;ejfrk thdf. È. weys msydgqhs ug f,aisfhkau ys;ska ujd .kak mq¿jka' thdf. mqxÑ ì<÷ ykS ;a tlal\" ySka iSrefj Wia my;a fjk mqxÑ mmqj uf.a weia biairy ;sfhkjd jf.a'' uf.a r;a;rxa mxq Ñ meáhd'' thd .ek u;la fjkfldg ug blsì÷Kd' thdj uf.a w;a foflka jvd .kak\" uf.a mmqjg ;=re¿ lr.kak\" thdf. §ma;us ;a ks,a weia folg tì,d n,kak'' thdf. mqxÑ wf;ka uf.a flia le/,a,la w,a,f.k\" yrq ;,a y`äka yskd fjk yeá wykak'' fï f,dafl ;sfhk yeu krllau wu;l lrjk ta yskd y`v wykak ug ´k jqKd'' ierg yuk y<q `.g T¿j my;a lrf.k\" tl w;lska l÷¿;a msyo msyod'' ux wksla w;ska <ore lr;a;h f.or me;a;g hk ux ;Srej Èydg yefrõjd' yeu fohlau fyd| w;g yef¾ú'' ux ugu lhs d .;a;d' wdmyq f.or .syska'' ux fyd| f;a fldamamhla yod .kakjd' fudlla yß y;s ikaiqka lrjk fohla'' lefuduhs,a f;a'@''' Bg miafi jev lrkak mgka .kakjd'

ksïñ uqÈ;d fyar;a 10 lefuduhs,a f;a j,g uu kï leu;su kE' ta;a whs,d lshkjd taflka ks;ru thdf. ys; ikaiqka fjkjd lsh,d' b;ska wh,s d Th jf.a foaj,a .ek okakjfk' wh,s d lshkfa k uf.a fydou hd¿jd' ;du;a uf.;a tlal l;dny lrk lSm fokdf.ka tlaflfkla'' ta ojia j, udhs wh,s dhs yás fh tlu mjfq , ifydoa ßfhda jf.a' wms uq,skau uqK .eys,d w÷k.;af;a mqxÑ ldf,È' w÷kf.k jeä l,la hkak l,ska wms oek .;a;d wms fokakgu ifydaor ifydaoßfhda keye lsh,d' wms fokakd tlsfkldg ifydaoßfhda fjkjd lsh,d wms ;SrKh lf<a úy¿s jg jf.'a b;ska jeä l,a hkka l,ks a wfma ne§u ìÈkka neß úÈfya tlla jqKd' tod boka wo fjkl,au ta ne§u tfyuuhs' oeka wms jeäysáfhda fj,d' wms fokakgu n,d lshd .kka f.j,a\" lrkka riaidj,\"a bgq lrkka j.lSï ;fs hkjd' wfma tÈfkod Ôú; fldÉpr fjkia jqK;\"a whs,d kï ;du;a yenEjgu úfkdafoka bkak fl,af,la' ta;a thdf. jevhs\" iudc Ôú;hhs\" fydoyeá îu;a fjk rd;S% idohs\" laI‚l lEu j¾. j,ks au msßuefyk lEu fõ,a álhs tlal thd Th fi!LH mqreÿ;a fyd|g iunr lr.;a;d' jHdhdu\" Ndjkd\" uki ikaiqka lrjk foaj,a\" m<;=re îu\" tl tl j¾. j, f;'a ' thdg udj fmd<Uj .kak mq¿jka jqfKa Th f;a j¾. j,g ú;rhs'' ta;a thd W;aidyh kï w; weßfh kE' —B,.g fhda.d''˜ yeuodu;a kskaog hkak l,ska\" uu fyd¢kao lsh,d n,kak weu;=ula .kak fj,djg thd Th jf.a fohla lshkjd' —wmsg m%hsfjÜ f,ikaia álla lrkak mq¿jka' Thhs uuhs ú;rla hx'' yenehs uu ;uhs f.jkafk' Tkka ksoyig ldrKd lshkka kï nE' ux Thdg fyd|lafk lrkak yokafk ;shd'' úfYaIfhkau fï fj,dfj'' yeu foau wjq,a fj,d ;sfhkafk lsh,d ux okakj' ta;a Thd álla ieye,¨a fjkka tmdhe'' Thd;a álla y;s =jlaldr jeäh's b;ska tfyu nE' ux fïl nqla lrkj'' ta ú;rla fkfjhs Thd fïlg tkj'' tÉprhs'˜

kïs ñ uqÈ;d fyar;a 11 ux ta .ek jdo lrkak .sfha kE'' ug talgj;a yhshla ;snqfK kE' fjk ldg;a jvd fydÈka whs,d uf.a .ek oekf.k yás hd' b;ska iuyr úg thd lshk tl;a yß we;'s ' iuyr úg taflka ug fyd|la fjkak;a mq¿jka' ug lrkak foja ,a uy f.dvla ;sfhkj' oeka ug uf.a jev ál fjkog;a jvd jeo.;a' uu oeka ;ksfjÉp wïud flfklafk' oeka ug w;aWoõjg flfklaj;a kE' fkdjeïn¾ udfi bokau\" *af,dard whska fj,d .shdg miafiu ug w;a Woõjgj;a flfkla kE' ta fjkqjg fjk ljqreyß fydhd .kak ux W;aidy lf<;a kE' ;du ux tfyu lf<a;a kE' fldfydug;a ud;a tlal jev lrkka leu;s flfkla wdfh;a fydhd .kka mq¿jkao lsh,;a ug ielhs' b;ks a oeka ug ljqrej;a ke;s jqK;a\" byg Wäka jev f.dv f.dv .eys,d ;snqK;\"a ug tajd ;kshu lr.kaku isoaO fjkjd' myq.sh ojia j, ux iuyr foaj,a j,g uf.ka .,s sys,d hkak bv wer,d ;snqKd'' ta .ek lsis ielhla kE' oeka ug ´k uf.a jHdmdrh wdfhu;a yß mdrg .kak' myq.sh Yr;a iD;f= jÈ ál ld,hl\"a weKjïq iEfyk ;rulks a my; jeá,d ;snqKd' ta;a k;a;,a ldf, fjkfldg wdfh;a jeä fjkak mgka .;;a d' ug ´k jfq Ka wdfhu;a ke.sákak' fldhs ;rï ld,lK‚a lula y;s g oekKq ;\"a ux fï jev lrf.k hkka u tmdhe' fudk fudk foaj,a isoaO jqK;a\" ug ;du;a fydo fohla\" Okd;aul fohla lrkak mq¿jka lsh,d wks;a whg fmkakkak ug ´k jqKd' uu ;du;a uuuhs lsh,d'' uf.a w;ska fudk foaj,a ios aO jqK;'a ' uu ;du;a —;shd˜ uhs lsh,d'' ;shfvdard we,sia wEIa*S,aâuhs lsh,d fmkakkak ug ´k jqKd' fï flfyïu,a f,akaiqj wdfhu;a .e,fjkak mgka .;a; ksid uu .ema idmamqj .dj k;r jqKd' fyd|fgdau l,lsß,d ysgmq uu ta f,akaiqj weo,d wrf.k\" .=,s lr,d ma,diaála ljrh hgg tnjq d' wdfhu;a T¿j WiaioÈa \" idmamqfj ùÿre ljq¿jlska uu uf.a m%;ìs ïnh hka;ug oelald' uu fudfyd;lg k;r fj,d weia f,dl= lrf.k ta Èyd

ksïñ uqÈ;d fyar;a 12 n,df.k ysáhd' uf.a fmkqu wka;su krlhs' ;o ÿUqre mdg\" uf.a È. fldKafv\" ojia .dKlska fidao,d kE' ysi uqÿkg lr,d fldKafv neof.k ;snqfK;a wms<sfj,g' yÈiaisfhka oelmq wmyeÈ,s m%;sìïnfhka jqK;a\" uf.a weia hg l¿ fj,d j, .ey,s d ;sfhk yeá ux oelald' uf.a Wia ykq ;j;a lems,d fmkqKd' nr wvq lr.kak y;s =fõ ke;;a myq.sh áfla uf.a nr;a álla wvq fj,d'' ta ljq¿ ùÿrefjka weia wylg weof.k uu wdfhu;a biairyg hkak mgka .;a;d' uu fudkaÜms,¾ .dâka tl yryd weúof.k hkfldg jeiai ;j;a ier fjkak mgka .;a;d' b;ks a ux ;j;a mh blauka l<d' yßhgu lsõfjd;a ux .sfha ÿjk fkdÿjk .dKg' r¿ mdr Wäka fõf.ka hkfldg <ore lr;;a h iefrka ief¾g .eiaiqKd' nEkaâ fõÈldj jfÜg jeú,d ;snqKq ;Kfld< .,jñka ygs mq\" §m;a us ;a lndhla we| .;;a WoHdk md,lhd\" ux tkjd oel,d\" uf.a Èydju n,df.k thdf. jefâ állg k;r l<d' uf.a mmqj yrs fjkjd jf.a oekqKd' tl mdrgu uf.a yoj; .efyk fõf.;a jeä jqKd' wdfh;a kï tmd'æ wfka mska isoaO fjhs'' wog fï we;'s ' ta;a ux ;j álla <x fjkfldg thd yks djqKd' uv ;ejreK w;a by,g Wiai,d ug w; jekqjd' —fïl ;drdjkag kï fydo wmQre WoEikla'' fkao fl,af,'@˜ —Tõ'' we;;a uhs Tõ''˜ uu fudfyd;lg k;r jqKd' <ore lr;af; ljrh;a yo,d\" uf.a nvq u¨ ál ;j;a álla tafl hgg ;,a¨ l<d' wdfhu;a biairyg hkak l,ska ux wr ukqiaihg yskd jqKd' fudfyd;lg ys;g oeksÉp nh áflka ál wvq fjkak mgka .;a;d' uf.a yqiau wdfhu;a taldldÍ fjkak mgka .;a;d' ys;g oekqK wiajeis,a, ksidu ysi lerflk .;shla oekqKd' biairyg hk .ukau uu uf.a ol=Kq ue‚lalgqj lrlj,d\" uf.a mrK Tfï.d w;a Trf,daiqfjka fj,dj ne¨jd' tfld<y myq fj,d jeä fj,djla kE' fk,a

ksïñ uqÈ;d fyar;a 13 biafldaf, weß,d f.or tkak ;j meh y;rla ;sfhkjd' jev álla lr.kak ;j meh y;rla ;fs hkjd' f;a álla fndkak\" fudkj yß fohla lkak'' ðka fnda;f,a u. wer,d bkka '' tl wruKq l bkak W;aidy lrkak'' ;j meh y;rla ;fs hkjd' ta fjkfldg weo jefgñka ;snqK uy jeiaig T¿j kjdf.k ux f.or me;a;g yereKd'