Sentience | Volume No. 1

Forbidden Love / 101W I L L I N G T O G I V E U P Y O U R S U N S E T by Randy Gianan Jr. Unexpectedly from the togetherness. It has been five doubts of your thoughts, you did months now, and I haven’t moved To the person whom I recently not fight for the genuineness of on from what we had. You will love, your love. I never knew that we always be the best part of I was aware of how would end up easily like an ash me, even though I am easily everything ended. that has been wiped by a strong forgotten. I always pray for The night was too silent. wind. In a blink of an eye, we your own happiness, peace, and Everybody’s asleep - except to have already said, “Goodbye.” love. an empty soul; crying of pain Everyone was asleep, and We might have ended our and asking for help but no one all I could hear was the rain paths together, but you have could ever do it. accompanying my emotions and been the happiest chapter of my It was me. telling me that I was not alone. story. Thank you, my forbidden I remember the nights But I know, I am. Literally I love. on how things began fading, but am. I was left by the person who what kept me puzzled were the used to be by my side, bringing You will always be my reasons why everything changed love to my soul, and joy to my king. as fast as a snap. My four- heart. cornered room comforted me, as I know, we cannot turn Love, my blanket wept my tears, and back to the time where we Was once your king, too pillows hugged me tightly – as cherished every moment of our tight as the way you hugged me, before.

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WILLING TO GIVE UP YOUR SUNSET / 103 Let you go By Jessa Mariz G. Corpuz And if this is the last time that we could talk, I hope you remember these words I’m about to say. Finally, I’m letting you go, You are now free to love someone new.

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Sana Ngayon Ikaw MunaWILLING TO GIVE UP YOUR SUNSET / 105 By Jessa Mariz G. Corpuz Ilang ulit kang Ikinulong ang iyong muna, sumugal, ngunit sarili sa ideyang wala Na hindi na mahalaga sa huli’y hindi ka kung wala sila,. ang mga opinyon na nagtagumpay, Mas piniling ibuhos ang lumalabas sa kanilang Ilang mga desisyon ang oras at pag-ibig para bibig, iyong isinagawa, ngunit sa iba, Dahil kahit ilang tama sa huli hindi naging Kinalimutan at iniwan ang iyong nagawa, tama. ang sariling kasiyahan sadyang ang nag- Ilang ulit kang para sa kanila, iisang mali pa rin ang umintindi, pero hindi Ngunit hindi pa rin nakikita, kailanma’y inintindi, naging sapat upang sa Kaya sana ngayon alam Ilang ulit kang huli ay piliin ka. mo na, mas mahalaga nagmahal, ngunit ang pagmamahal mo sa sinuklian ng pighati. Sana ngayon alam mo na, iyong sarili, kaysa sa na bago sila ay ikaw pagmamahal nila.

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a wishful thinker It is not our abilities that show what we truly are… it is our choices. – Dumbledore, Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets

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/ 109A W I S H F U L T H I N K E R Ang Salamin ni Jayson Sabong Sinasakal ng salitang, “Isa Sumisigaw sa pagsamong, kang pagkakamali’t kabiguan.” “Pakiusap, salamin ko’y h’wag Binulag ng mundong mapangmata, mong dungisan, ngunit sarili ang hinuhusgahan; ‘Pagkat ikaw at ako ay iisa, Minumulto ng kahapon, tila sabay tayong matuto mula sa bangungot ng kamalian, karanasan.” Nabubog sa sariling salamin, Nagkamali man minsan, ating pagkatao’y niyuyurakan. tandaan, kailanma’y hindi tayo naging kabiguan. Binasag ang pusong pilit binubuo ng katahimikan,

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A WISHFUL THINKER / 111 Love finds You by Jayson Sabong I searched for love, And I stayed in the dark, I found hate and misery. away from this cruel I searched for myself, world. and I found love. I’m searching for But it ended. a place I can call home. It wasn’t true. Until I stop breaking, in pursuit of love. So I lived my life, surrounded, but alone. I will let love find me.

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/ 113A W I S H F U L T H I N K E R mvle by Edmar Delos Santos Many things to do but don’t be overwhelmed, Victory is near, and the future is clear Learn and learn until gaining expertise Enjoy the journey, most especially.

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/ 115A W I S H F U L T H I N K E R Magic Carpet By Jayson Sabong Building dreams to pursue In life is not so easy to take And dealt with along the way, You need a lot of courage. To fight for your own dreams By keeping the goals and focus To reach it no matter how painful It may cost by making it possible. Not all dream asunder Are made for you to give up It’s an inspiration to keep going Persevering the endurance to be on top.

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stuck in a dark room There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” ―Maya Angelou, I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings

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/ 119S T U C K I N A D A R K R O O M Black’s Sight by Edmar Delos Santos I’ve been searching for a light I need it to conquer the dark I saw a little spark but still, I can’t get out of the black’s sight. Waiting for a flash of bright, but no one still gave a little shine So, I tried to create a light yet, failed to beam at this time. I want to be extricated by the dark to be out of the black’s sight I will gradually fix my light

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/ 121S T U C K I N A D A R K R O O M Bulsekka a Bulan! ni Christian Jay Perpuse Bulsek a bulan, kaska laeng masimsimsim no ta haanna silsilawan kasta a talyawenka siadinnoman nasipnget ti daldaliasatek ayanmo a dalanko. a tangatang. Agkabawkansan, ta haanka ammo No pay kasta, pagdumugam ditoy rabaw ti daga. urayek manen ti inka Iranrantam kadi wenno naumakan pinangsangbay a mangsilaw kaniak? ti makurkurang a gungundaway. Napalaloka ta balbalkotennak Ta padasek nga agparintumengta ti kinasipnget. tan – awan na kadi ti maudi a Napaidamka ta arignan idulinmo kanito. ta nagpaidasig a raniagmo

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/ 123S T U C K I N A D A R K R O O M Murmuray Dagiti Malmalday a Lasag by Edmar Delos Santos Iti kapaot a tiempo Ibayabay daytoy namnama intimekmi, a nagkawes ti madi nga umir-irot, Daytoy a kapapadas, makita Sapay ta timmaor pudno a kas laslasag a kalaban, ti karirikna nga a maburburarayan. pangtaan na ti madi aglumlumot. Ditan ti kaibusan maukas Dagitan dagiti kaamesan daytoy a rigat; a panagridam ken arig a marunrunot a naukupan. pangpangta kaunggan. Makatitileng dagitoy ti lak- am a dusa! Agballaigi koman, a kiraod ti matmatianan “Ikakaasinakami, Mangriing daytoyen a pagbagasan. Ama a manangisalakan!” a pasamak ken padas.

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/ 125S T U C K I N A D A R K R O O M Kaba…kabataan Ni Edsel Harry R. Turda “Kabataan ang pag-asa ng Ang dapat sana’y inhinyero, bayan”, Pagkamataas ay ‘di na maabot Linyang tumatak sa ating ng metro kaisipan. Ang dapat sana’y doktor, Tunay pa kayang makakamtan? Ibig lamangan ang instraktor. O magiging tinik sa ating kalamnan. Ilang propesyon pa ba ang babanggitin? Ang dapat sana’y abogado, Mag-iiba pa ba ang tingin? Nagwewelga sa kanto. Damdamin ay kinakabahan, Ang dapat sana’y guro, Wala na yatang bukas pang Kasalana’y tinuturo. aabangan.

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/ 127S T U C K I N A D A R K R O O M Ikakaasinak a Managbasol ni Christian Jay Perpuse Ita ken kaano man, ta idi haanko maibturan ania man a tiempo, iti panagarubos luluak, kaano man nga aldaw, saan a mabantayan no kaano Agkaweska kadi ti sidongko. daytoy tangatang ko’t aglulem, Maasika, anaman a basol ta idi pimmanawka, ket aglunit babaen ti oras. haanka nangitedda’t plete Uray inton oras ti apitko, agsubli ti lugar, sarungkaram daytoy agsagsagaba pateg daytoy bukodko a bagi. nga adipem

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ClichÉ / 129S T U C K I N A D A R K R O O M By Jayson Sabong “I love you and I will never leave you” “Happy and Contented” A promise that looking good as Words of feeling that can new, easily said, Such an overwhelming feeling But sometimes it has been if it’s really true. disregarded. Cliche as it may sound, But the common thing in “Endure the pain until it this world is hard to abide. hurts no more” A facile mantra of counselor, But it’s truly hard to absorb it all.

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/ 131S T U C K I N A D A R K R O O M I Love You Two by Edmar Delos Santos Yes, I love you two, So please babe, don’t leave me too and make me feel blue.

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feeling like a masterpiece The most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or touched, they are felt with the heart.” – Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince.

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FEELING LIKE A MASTERPIECE / 135 You are Lucky by Randy Gianan Jr. You are lucky if you’re able to open your eyes, to breathe your nose, to speak your mouth, to hear from ears, and to taste from the tongue. You are lucky - and remember, that you always are.

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FEELING LIKE A MASTERPIECE / 137 My Trek, My Plum and my Chirography by Jayson Sabong a pen”, like a MANLIEST That can be used as Philosopher once said, fighting for hunger. learnings, to RETEACH and “true wisdom never dwells In the matrix of alpha and disseminate to my reader. in the arms of a BOASTER”. beta, called NAMELIST; as Letters and arts of life, an elixir. The moment I sign-in my must be smoothly sailed Serve as ALIMENTS for the pen, and begin to stitch like the voyage of BOATERS. brain, to continue the words not of SLANGIER. Facets of education can be plight of a learner. It REALIGNS valued a mix of sweet, SORBATE and thoughts, with wide senses, bitter. Environment and nature were and lessons that are Preservation of knowledge, considered as my very first stronger. must apply with BORATES, to TEACHERS. Would my tongue cut to keep as fresher. Struggle and perseverance mute, hence, my chirography are practices to get off as shall be my SIGNALER AILMENTS of failure a CHEATER. ‘Till the last gasp of my and frustration, play Planting words in the breath, this plum is my hindrances for new HECTARE of grasp are ready RESIGNAL and defender. beginners. to reap in the corner. In the field of “an ink and

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FEELING LIKE A MASTERPIECE / 139 Always by Randy Gianan Jr. How does happiness complete someone’s life? Does it need a mathematical formula? Scientific measures? Rhythm and beat of the music? Time and balance of dance? No. It only needs acceptance. Not from anyone, but from yourself. Always remember, never ever disappoint yourself just because of others’ presence. Be happy. You deserve to be happy, always.

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/ 141F E E L I N G L I K E A M A S T E R P I E C E Dis-ABLE by Randy Gianan Jr. Your inabilities be grateful, aren’t the real meaning and see the world of life. beyond its own beauty, Instead, beyond its own grace the hope of realities that it could give you. and your own life. Be happy, Don’t take it because you are able. as a disgrace for it is not your own mess;

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FEELING LIKE A MASTERPIECE / 143 Unfiltered by Randy Gianan Jr. One secret to happiness is being real, Don’t be bothered, don’t be conscious - for as long as you are yourself, that’s the happiness that would ever be more than less.

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over the moon Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy.” -Anne Frank

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/ 147O V E R T H E M O O N Dimples by Randy Gianan Jr. Your two chubby cheeks with a shallow hole, reminds me of wholeness and even perfection. Those smiles that you gave me on that first day are still here, making my heart happy - forever and completely.

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/ 149O V E R T H E M O O N Endless Hope by Randy Gianan Jr. I hope this day won’t end as the sun rises, I was with you until it sets. Giving me peace joy to my soul, and love to my being - I hope this won’t really end. I hope you’d stay with me, forever. I just hope, endlessly.

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