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a fascina on of personhood through the ever-changing landscapes of poe c jus ce using the energy of letters for the synergy of words to understand the depth of life means to struggle through the syntax of calami es… because a cra ed vision is not only a dream but the culmina on of experiences and traumas posi vely cul vated om a god-guided path of trials & tribula ons to see the invisible shackles on my hands i’ve been living with all my life to now break ee om t h e g e n e r a o n s o f h o m e i n v a s i o n s building eedom for myself and soon my people with the pain of understanding welcoming the innovated mys c powers to enter the inner portals of intui ve intelligence 201 breaking us down

365 Emotions: The Poetic nature of survival thirvance the superconscious of retaining knowledge om past lives with genera onal pressure to make diamonds in order to mentally deposit into the mind bank the golden championship ring of responsibili to dismantle bugged devices that was spreading systemically hidden chronic diseases – commit ng crimes against nature but reversed with the light force electrical currents of my gold blood a man with a vision on a mission bigger than life - libera on bravely intaking the red pill to die and reborn with a jedi superintelligence a risk for abundance to control my reali through high-level observa ons rather than being controlled by what we see on the replicated clone faces of this world surpassing how the masses only perceive success within the known space because eedom to some is de ned by “comfortabili ” with no worries along the margins as to some, it feels a little better than no better… while success in the unknown, “the grey area,” is to be discovered by the awakened messiah in all of us with the pursuits of eedom in the dark through past posi ve re ec ons following the melodic thumps of one’s palpita ng heart during the summer me fall the dawn of euphoric humani is to come with abundance… 202

the unthinkable dreams you cradle and nourish as a baby contributes to a circular alterna ve economy that engineer new futures for solidari economics a psychic power to see into the future for self-ful lling prophecies – talking to one’s future-self so don’t lose track of your vision in a wavering crowd as the chosen one chosen with pa ence with a spiritual lineage connected to the book of saint daniel a truth unveiled pushing me to live up to the meaning of my name - a loyal axe transla ng visions embodying the meaning of how a person’s name shares their des ny an act to expel the spirits that drains one’s battery life to zero for self-sustainabili because protec ng one’s energy is and will never be wrong unmask what we’ve always hid: the belief in you starts with you un l others see your poten al they do not deserve your red fox spirit 203

365 Emotions: The Poetic nature of survival thirvance the past beautiful makes us a detachment of expectations should be effortless in strengthening us opening up, letting go, and staying e m p t y to be light and f r e e becoming one with the unassociated space of consciousness centering the mind, body , and soul to confront my stories of the underworld to stop outrunning myself in a race against me because “time is a mother” being at peace by accepting how my gold blood was molded then to now with the abusive slaps of afflection outweighing the care of empty hugs 204

and building us up now putting an end to the constant search for answers to the chip on my shoulder because the simple answer is accepting there is no answer... the emancipation of the pressures in life extinguishes the idea of more or less ...the internal thinkings of expectations... 205

365 Emotions: The Poetic nature of survival thirvance s ll, my inner angels cry because it hurts to even see my demons die recognizing the complex contradic ng internal con icts we all have is the key to the entrance of mental surgery …for a breakdown to breakthrough… like a corner of a book’s page le folded to be revisited to mend the unattended traumas in my body that ate away a bleeding heart the heartbreak anniversaries once exhaus ng me of loving myself as a god-like spirit to be hungover on love ll i died inside a thousand mes like the me loops of no tomorrow it’s not that i’ve suddenly become stronger but i’ve learned to be braver 206

in all hones , my body s ll trembles with a three fear response at the immensi of being tricked to believe how false evidence appears real to f.a.i.l… the true fear always interrup ng legacies… but taking a deep breath in, i take my quantum leap of faith with full faith, fl y i’ll ins nc vely learn how to being in the air and on the ground all at the same me as if i walked a thousand miles with no des na on un l i came towards the light of a better place to nd the desire to change and be the best version i can ever imagine tapping into the vulnerabili in crea vi as humani ’s strength – the intelligence of having fun 207

365 Emotions: The Poetic nature of survival thirvance although the scars remain with an attempt to destroy through the operaon of survival i become a steward to myself with deep reverence for the power to endure making my past 15-year-old proud of who he’d soon become rebutting the statistics telling him he won’t survive reminded by the premature goodbyes so he wonders if he’ll truly have an instrumental voice like mine’s for his me when made disposable in a white-built environment where we’re all meant to die how do we make ourselves indispensable to meet god’s design to thrive? 208

– the beautiful cycle of love matured through hardships faster than i planned because on god’s me the unseen higher powers showed me p i got to go u d o w n before i can go like a seed pulled by gravi into burial because we don’t rise to the level of our visions, we f a l l to the level of our inner peace now towards the koi pond behind the church, where esh as water charged by light with memories to see past the un ltered water of traumas – the past trying to trap us in a box no longer rippling grayscale images of me silently crying for help a‘cause by nature, i was built to b r e k … like a glow s ck before it can vibrantly shine …broken glass puzzled apart pieced together… 209

to illustrate a colorful cathedral mosaic of me crying with love showing that everything that comes apart must come together a portrait portraying imperfect beauty with no defintion, but it holds invincible power power for empowerment to feel the epitome of life’s elegance like i’m almost there yet sll so far the bittersweeess in me moves forward with intention as the love for life walks on its own two feet a rewired brain where the mind manifests as the most powerful organism because “consciousness is power” and those projecting liming beliefs are prisoners of their own conscience when was it ever wrong to spoil myself with the owers i deserve before death? but i’ve learned in the face of jealousy , “hate the sin, not the sinner...” 210

i know know that the sky's not the limit, but rather a view to enjoy the boundless sea soon transcending above and beyond lightyears to reach my “blue spirit” at the wonder my adolescence to adulthood showed me that my problems are my solutions with an honorable exile from a place and me i once called “home” in the last chapter i enter my life’s next milestone passage ready to love wholeheartedly with a lust for nature rediscovering the “foreign” concept of love with self in the wilderness where once lost ...to fall in love with myself all over again... 211

365 Emotions: The Poetic nature of survival thirvance twhhriosupgewhrtshhtihespeheahrrsamrtmhonrooinucaigcha ampli the lovely voice that pically goes unheard like the whispers j m gn o p u the cli of so lips in background vocals, nevertheless, the resonance in music subtly resonates with hearts during ilight mes like smooth jazz echoing my beau in so spoken-ness across the mountains i once thought i had to move the child within comes alive with a quiet inner soliloquy a story shared authen cally vulnerable for the unexpected consequences of collec ve care in conscious to value love over rules my “isolated incidents” are your learnings by ou ardly o ering in nite intelligence to take refuge in the world of teachings beyond the body’s vessel docking on this universe’s island at the touch of regenera ve so sand to soothe a throbbing wound with the salt of our own tears 212

making a di cult trea with the ghost squatters that built a “home” on the soils of our mind once struggling every single day to see the beau of poten al pregnancy in the genius me clouded the farmland of brain-scapes with self-imposed & societal-in icted imposter syndrome making the inner crops sick to lack nourishment for ourishment in dreams commit ng one of the deadliest sins to be in a never-ending drought …ac vely suppressing god-gi ed talents instead of “living buddha, living christ…” to embrace, accept, and partake in the ritual dance for rain with no hesita on it starts to become easier to be all of me and more of me one day at a me 213

365 Emotions: The Poetic nature of survival thirvance beau ful sceneries are meant to be lived, once seen they can fade but never be u n f e l t so i soon draw wisdom om the pool of experiences i’ve endured medita ng on the proverb that keeps me grounded, “ăn qua nhó ke trông cây” realizing the cards i’ve been dealt with are my assets in life no one can fully comprehend to the extent of what i lived …through me, “4 your eyez only” an irresis ble pride fostered in reclaiming my con dence to be proud in my shoes …the shaqs grabbing it om the past to use it in the present to not be ashamed of the brokenness we have grown to know 214