Obra maestra in English (Group 4)

GROUP 4 Finding Audelia

Table of Contents JENNY PAGE 1-5 NEW FRIEND, NEW ME PAGE 6-8 “WHAT HAPPENED?” PAGE 9-12 I DON’T KNOW WHO PAGE 13-19 I AM ANYMORE IT GOT BETTER PAGE 20-26

PART 1 Intro IREMÍA

Sun shining, brighter than yesterday The flowers bloom, with a pleasant summer air Audelia, a beautiful sunshine A strange new shade of gold, colorful and rare You can say that she is beyond real Her talent alone outshines everyone Very mesmerizing and Eloquent But everything and all will be done Jenny, a new overflowing magnet “Who is she?” Become the question of the people She’s everything they wanted to be, Life they wanted to have But Audelia will never be more than a side character bound to end in her story’s prequel “Shine brighter,” they said, “Smile more,” they said, She tried everything she can, She did everything that they wanted her to be But it all came to an end, just as her story began 1

The face I once kept A person my mind tagged All do come apart 2

I have been living in Los Angeles for a few years now. My name is Audelia and I am a working student. I study at Sunshine Academy. To be honest, I don’t have a lot of friends as not a lot of people know me in school and I’ve been in the academy for many years now. It’s probably because I don’t socialize much and it's not because I don’t want to talk to people, it's just I don’t know how to do it, not like the popular kids in our Academy. 3

Her name is Jenny, she's the kind of girl that attracted other students, she’s talented, pretty, one of a kind. She is literally everything I’ve wanted to be. I didn’t have a problem with it, I wished I was like jenny, but like I said not many people know me. I’m just the background character in her movie. Sometimes, I just feel as if my life is on auto-pilot. I keep on questioning the things that I do and why I even do them. High grades? 4

My parents still want more from me. Perfect scores, yet I have 0 friends. Kind to others, but I still can’t get myself to be happy and respect who I am. 5

PART 2 new friend, new me HIRAETH

There was this English activity That made me talk to \"famous\" Jenny Shocked she replied to me that made her agree Now I spent hanging out around Jenny Audelia mimicks Jenny to her behavior and style. Cuz' she wants to be like Jenny so bad 6 HIRAETH

One day, we were asked to do 7 a class activity for English, ughh socializing. I got grouped with Jenny and a bunch of my classmates, they were talking about what’s going to happen in our presentation. I thought about speaking up to give my opinion. They were surprised as if I just popped in existence. Jenny thought it was a “cool” idea and they continued talking. Ever since that interaction, I try to have a conversation with Jenny every time we have our English classes. This went on for about 3 weeks and every time I ask her how she was, I always end up reminding her who I was.

Finally, she started to grasp 8 my name and we started talking more often, I even realized that she didn’t want to talk to me but she just couldn’t ignore me since it was rude. But over the days I spent hanging out around Jenny, I picked up on how she dealt with people and noted down every flaw, outfit, the way she behaves. I even checked what she brought in for lunch and how she organized her bag, I started mimicking her behavior. I saved up a lot of money from my job and started buying the same clothes like hers.

PART 3 What happened? - IONNA

My parents started to notice the changes I made, I tell them I'm happy with what I was doing and yet they despite it, telling me how my grades have suddenly dropped and that I wasn't attending my mathlete club anymore. Ignore them. And I did. Days passed, I started getting attention as if I was like Jenny, crowds were around me at the academy, even outside! Yet I couldn't help but notice that Jenny didn't enjoy all the attention I got, so she started being rude to me and it came to the point where she publicly opened up to me. People started recording and pointing their phones at us as I shivered and realized what I was doing all along... I have felt I was kind of a freak, a lonely version of Jenny. 9

\"Confession\" I long to see your pretty face again. I long to feel your love and warm embrace. To see you laugh at all my corny jokes. And watch you glow with beauty as day ends. You are always there for me, I do know. To cheer me up at times that I feel low. You give me encouragement that I need. To face each day with hope and strength to live. 10

How I wish I can tell you everything. And to know how you also truly feel. I am so thankful for having you near me. Having you beside me, I feel no fear. I long to tell you that I have you so. And thankful to tell you that you are here. 11

CHANGE C - Chaotic Transients H - Hasty Guesses A - Apparent Differences N - Negative Impacts G - Gradual Transitions E - Emotional Swings 12

PART 4 I don't know who I am anymore - NINJA

I got home and quickly went to my room looking at myself, I may have gotten all the attention from others, I was finally seen, but it truly wasn’t me at all. I went back to bed as I was about to go to sleep when all of a sudden, I got a notification “Audelia the doppelganger” “Jenny wannabe!” “This is way better than Mean Girls” “who even is she? Sad\". Tears started rolling down my cheeks as the notifications from the video rapidly show up. I couldn’t handle it. 13

\"should I stay or should I go?\" The sad, bitter comments began to fade, I have never felt this embarrassed and afraid So many eyes turned and stared at me I shut the bathroom door to calm down, and maybe, I will finally be free... - FREE VERSE (1/4) 14

“I don’t know who I am anymore” I'm looking at the mirror. I wanted to end it, I should’ve been myself, I should’ve been that girl that people don’t notice, and I should’ve just stayed in the background. 15

Free from the harsh words that I badly want to forget. Is this something that I am going to regret? Shaking, I grabbed every bottle that I can see, Then my vision got blurry with all the tears as I scream, “Mom, I’m sorry!“ - FREE VERSE (2/4) 16

I looked in the mirror, trying to keep my steady position, Thinking If I could still really do this and go on No more thoughts! I deserve to be in this place, Worthless, a failure, a copycat, and a disgrace. - FREE VERSE (3/4) 17

- FREE VERSE (4/4) I saw the world around me collapse, then I hear a loud cry. Motionless and numb as I hear voices saying “why?!” Too late for help, I sob, that’s it... Goodbye 18

Reflection Honest, overwhelming Looking, remembering, regretting Clearly seeing myself again Mirror - CINQUAIN 19

PART 5 It got better - J.K. ROWLING

R – Regret and sorrow left me stranded E- Everything to me. I thought was gone G- giving into forgiveness, gambled and lost R- Realization slowly but surely sets in E- Existing from a deep sea of agony T- Trials taught me to be wise in everything I so desire and S- See what I was unable to see. 20

I woke up in a hospital bed, my parents were really worried. They said they saw me lying on the floor with foam coming out of my mouth. 21

Next to them was Jenny, she too was worried and blamed herself for what happened, “I wish I shouldn’t have confronted you in public” Jenny sobbed, I told her it wasn’t her fault. 22

A lot of weeks have passed, I was told that I am better and that I am ready to go back to the academy again. I’m closer to my parents now, to them, I was already perfect the way I was before, and they were sorry for pressuring me too much with school and made me promise that I would tell them the things that used to bother me, and if ever those thoughts were to come back. 23

Anxious, I slowly walked down the hallways. I got greeted by Jenny, I was surprised that she wanted to be friends with me even after what happened, but there it goes, the friendship started again and I still acted as my usual self. The important thing is just to be yourself because trying to be someone else isn't going to make you happy. Growing is different from copying. The end. 24

F- Friendship built by two strangers R- Rare and hard to find I- In times of Difficulties E- Expecting to have a helping hand and help you stand N- No matter what may happen between us, we will still D- Develop a friendship that had just began 25

You are filled with doubt Of special things inside you But it’s all I see 26

WRITERS \"FINDING AUDELIA\" IREMÍA - Reina Mathelda Asis HIRAETH - Jasmine Tria IONNA - Christian Basco NINJA - Janine Cielo Tamunday J.K. ROWLING - Arjay Rabino Pangilinan