SAYSON_Autobiography

REMEMBRANCE: MEMORIES TO LAST A LIFETIME Charles Benedict A. Sayson

TABLE OF CONTENTS 5 7 Chapter 1 – Ways to understand Oneself 8 -Understand Personality 9 -Appreciate Body 11 -Appreciate your values 12 -Recognize dreams and aspirations 14 -Identify Preference -Embrace Past 15 -Understand self-perception and others as well 16 17 Chapter 2 – Swot Analysis 19 -Strength - Weaknesses 20 -Oppurtunities -Threats 21 22 Chapter 3 – Physiological Development 23 -Puberty 24 Chapter 4 – Cognitive Development -Sensorimotor -Pre-Operational -Concrete Operational -Post Operational

TABLE OF CONTENTS 25 25 Chapter 5 – Psychosocial Development 27 -Trust vs Mistrust 28 -Autonomy vs Shame and Doubt 31 -Initiative vs Guilt -Industry vs Inferiority 32 -Role vs Role Confusion 34 Chapter 6 - Moral Development 36 -Pre Conventional 37 -Conventional Chapter 7 - Developmental Tasks and Challenges -Tasks -Challenges

DEDICATION To myself that I may remember and appreciate the things that happened to me that lead me to who I am today. To my family, that they may view this as a reminder of the happy things that happened in our life. That by having this book, I may learn from my past experiences to be able to progress towards my future properly and carefully.

A moment lasts for seconds but the memories lasts forever. life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards. — Soren Kierkegaard “He was still too young to know that the heart’s memory eliminates the bad and magnifies the good, and that thanks to this artifice we manage to endure the burden of the past.” ― Gabriel García Márquez, Love in the Time of Cholera

CHAPTER 1 - WAYS TO UNDERSTAND ONESELF There are 7 different ways provided for us to deeply understand ourselves. The first way is by understanding our personality. For me, I am joyful, reliable, responsible, compassionate, easy-trusting, hard-working, and appreciative. I am joyful and always try to be every day. I am reliable, my friends can easily talk to me and ask a favor, I will always be there for them. I am responsible, I always make sure to accomplish the school tasks given to me as well as my responsibilities in our house. I am compassionate, I always help whenever and however I can. There is a situation before where I saw my aunt's housekeeper going back and forth just to transport the coconuts so I helped her. My uncle was there and he saw me so he took a picture of me carrying the coconut. I am easy trusting that’s why there are times that I misinterpret the relation I have with someone. This is also the reason why I was scammed. I am hard working, the very first memory that I remember showing this trait was on grade 2 or 3 in which I stayed up late just to finish my cursive writing. And lastly, I am appreciative, I appreciate even the little things or the smallest gestures because I believe that every action takes time and effort. 5

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CHAPTER 1 - WAYS TO UNDERSTAND ONESELF Appreciating your body is the second way. I, myself, is a very slim person which they usually describe in tagalog as “patpatin”. When I was younger, I perceived my body as strong and just right for my age but as I get older, I observed that it is neither strong nor right for my age. Appreciating your body does not limit in just embracing your current body but it also means doing something to improve it. So, I tried doing exercise during the pandemic which greatly improved my physique. I saw the difference in just 3 months. Currently, it’s been 2 months since my last exercise which is not good. I’ll make sure to continue it because it’s for my own health. 7

CHAPTER 1 - WAYS TO UNDERSTAND ONESELF The third way is by appreciating your values. We appreciate our values by looking at ourselves and understanding the different traits that make us stand out. There is no human being that is equivalent to another. We are all special and created with different traits and talents that make us exceptional. For me, what makes me exceptional is my natural curly hair because not all people have this kind of hair structure. I also think that the poems that I created are unique to others because I have my own style in writing and interpreting the story that I imagined and want to convey. 8

CHAPTER 1 - WAYS TO UNDERSTAND ONESELF Knowing your likes and dislikes is the fourth way. And it is an analyzation that never stops because as day passes, we learn and encounter new things that we put in either the like box or the dislike box. I know my preference whether it’s on food, people, or the things that I do. My favorite foods are kare-kare, sinigang, tonkatsu, torikatsu, ramen, tempura, pizza, and pastas. While the food that I don’t like are kaldereta and chicken curry; these foods are good, it’s just not for me. For people, I like it when they show effort to accomplish the things that they need to do. My dislikes on people is when they arrive late because I was taught that if you disrespect other peoples’ time, you also disrespect them. That is why I hate it whenever I arrive late, so I always leave the house early, especially if I am far away from the place that I would go. Lastly, I like playing basketball, eating, taking pictures, watching movies, walking, playing mobile games, and going out. While the things that I experienced that I don’t want to repeat anymore are riding extreme rides, and jumping at the top of a waterfall. My preference is not constant, they are subject to change as I explore more. 9

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CHAPTER 1 - WAYS TO UNDERSTAND ONESELF The fifth way is by recognizing your dreams and aspirations. I had a hard time doing this especially because of the pressure that I am already in grade-11, and I must decide quickly because next year will be the application for the college admission. When I was 6-11 years old, my dream job was to be a doctor until I learned that there are a lot of body parts that I should remember. I know right there and then that I am not fit to be a doctor. So, I switched to my other choice which is a civil engineer; I think the profession of my father and brother affected my perception of engineers, so I decided to choose this profession. My father is an electrical engineer, and my older brother is an architect. And, after a thorough discussion with myself, I arrived in the conclusion that I am now sure to take this course in college. But life is unpredictable, my parents are asking me to reconsider and instead take computer engineering or any course related to computers because they say that it is what’s on demand especially for our generation and for the future. So, currently, I am still not sure what to take but it’s a good thing that I am only considering two choices which are civil engineering and Information Technology/Computer Engineering. 11

CHAPTER 1 - WAYS TO UNDERSTAND ONESELF Embracing the past is the sixth way. It is also one of the hardest things to do among the 7 ways. “Mahirap na nga ang magpatawad, makalimot pa kaya?” This is the phrase that I mostly hear especially to those people who are severely damage by others. The phrase is true it is hard to forgive and to forget but by doing so, we are opening our damaged heart and helping it heal. I, myself, encountered problems that involved others that are special to me. And I tell you that it’s better when we are younger because when we are young and someone hurts us, eventually at that same day your relationship with that person will be restored. But now, when someone hurts you, it really hurts and your relationship with that person will not be restored overnight, it’ll take time. I remember having a fight with my longtime friend, and it took a week before we talk to each other again. Compared to when we were younger, when we were younger, and we would fight it will just take an hour or so then everything will go back to normal. The phrase is not only limited to the damage caused by others, but it is also applicable to the damage that we inflicted on ourselves. We should always remember that missing opportunities, letting our emotions control us, and degrading our own value hurts and damages ourselves. So, by embracing our past selves and accepting the different failures we had committed, we are lessening the burden of our heart and mind. 12

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CHAPTER 1 - WAYS TO UNDERSTAND ONESELF The seventh way is by understanding self-perception and others as well. Together with the sixth way this is also hard. It is not easy for us to understand others’ perception especially when it contradicts ours. I encountered how hard this way is during the election. I am a supporter of Leni Robredo, and I tried many times to understand others’ beliefs towards President Marcos because I don’t know why they are supporting him, so I tried to understand them. And I found a lot of reasons that answers my curiosity from the fake information circulating the internet, the title that his father grabbed during the Japanese war up until to the posted proofs of vote buying. Another factor that I think contributed to it is when some of us go beyond criticism which hurts others and gave them the perception that Marcos radiates a good and trustworthy aura just because of his unity campaign. The 7th way may be so hard to do but when we successfully do it, we can have more patience with others. 14

CHAPTER 2 - SWOT ANALYSIS I used the SWOT analysis as a basis to assess my strengths, weaknesses, opportunities, and threats. I have found out that my 5 strengths are being thoughtful, responsible, reliable, empathetic, and kind. I am thoughtful and kind, I always think of other’s feelings and try to help them in every way I can. I am also responsible; I make sure to do and accomplish my tasks. I am reliable; people can rely on me; I saw this kind of strength of mine whenever my friends were in need, and I observed that I always try to give my best in helping them. When I noticed that my friend looked sick, I immediately approached her and helped her go to the clinic. Or the time that I noticed my friend only bought juice at lunch time because he forgot his wallet and he didn’t tell us, I asked him that I’ll just treat his meal. My friends would always then say that I am observative and helpful then they would tease me. Lastly, I am empathetic; whenever I see someone suffering or in need of help; it feels like you understand their pain especially when you look into their eyes. 15

CHAPTER 2 - SWOT ANALYSIS My weaknesses are overthinking, self-doubt, sensitive, I trust easily, and that I do not do well under pressure because my emotions get ahead of me. I overthink a lot of things, even the small things, I think it is because I always fear failing or letting down the expectations others and I have for myself. Casually, I doubt myself, but the good thing with it is that whenever I doubt myself, I’ll always look into the mirror and ask myself on why I still doubt my capabilities and then I remind myself that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I am also sensitive, sensitive in a way that I feel like I know the pain of others whenever I would watch something sad especially when it is about family. My next weakness led me to be scammed last year. I trust people easily. When my niece shared her sideline and her profits with me, I decided to trust her and try out her online side hustle, so I paid my registration fee of 2000 pesos, but after a few weeks of trying, I didn’t get paid and then the website locked and after that we realized that we have been scammed. I just want to earn money so that my parents wouldn’t have to give me an allowance anymore. My last weakness is that I don’t perform well under pressure. Whenever I am under pressure, I try to focus myself on finishing the task but when uncontrollable factors affect me; emotions get ahead of me. 16

CHAPTER 2 - SWOT ANALYSIS The opportunities that I identified are reciting in class, listening to podcasts, having modules, having access to educational videos on you tube, and having my family and friends to talk to. On my previous school, we don’t usually have recitations since it is a self-paced school some of us are doing the advance lesson, some are on track with our facilitators while some are behind the lesson. But I do see reciting in class as an opportunity for me to improve myself as well to easily understand and test the knowledge that I acquired. It is also at my previous school that I saw the opportunity of having the modules given to us in advance because by this, we can browse the module to see the upcoming lessons. We can also use it as a reviewer since there are activities listed on the module that we can practice upon. Another opportunity that is related to education is having access to educational videos and class recordings which I can use to help me with the lessons that I have trouble learning. Listening to podcasts is another opportunity that I use to help me improve my mental health. I usually listen to Kwentos with Hannah which is a podcast about motivation, and self- perception. It is on her podcast that I learned things and quotes like “run with perseverance, be a child and explore”. The last opportunity that I noticed is that I have my family and friends to talk to. I can talk to my friends about whatever I am experiencing. My parents are there to help me whenever I need them and correct me on times that I would make a wrong judgement. 17

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CHAPTER 2 - SWOT ANALYSIS While, my threats are people over expectations, being left out in a group, failing, not being able to pass an entrance exam of the university that I like, and not being successful in the profession that I would take. The first threat that I recognized is people over expectation, it is really challenging and draining trying to accomplish everyone’s expectations to you. Second is being left out in a group, I experienced this when I was younger, and it is not good. Third is failing since I came from a school with a non-graded, self-paced, and modular system. I haven’t experienced failing and I do not want to experience it. Fourth is not being able to pass an entrance exam, I already experienced this when me and my friends took the PSHS entrance exam. It does not feel great to fail after spending a lot of time reviewing. Lastly, is not being successful in the profession that I will choose. It is hard to think about your future, but it is harder to look onto it only to see yourself as a failure. 19

CHAPTER 3 - PHYSIOLOGICAL DEVELOPMENT The physiological development is one of the most exciting developments we encounter. It is fun because we grow taller, our voice goes deeper, and we see maturity in our physical body. This development is more fun when you have your friends that experience the same changes that you experience. I remember in our friend group that we casually compete with other’s growth like who is taller, who has more muscles and who eats more or eats less. We have this friendly competition every lunch whenever we will all have the sizzling beef. Back in my old school, there was a CLAYGO policy, so the 2 slowest eaters are the ones who return the trays. It is also fun assuming us as an adult just because we grew moustache. Back then, we wanted to grow our moustache so that we would look mature but when it fully grown, some of us, including me, get rid of it because it does not look good. The saddest part in this development is when we hit the post pubescent stage which is where growth stops. It is sad knowing that your growth stops, and you didn't achieved the height that you want to achieve. Like me, I want to be 6 ft but I'm only 5'7. 20

CHAPTER 4 - COGNITIVE DEVELOPMENT Cognitive development is one of the fascinating developments we encounter. When I was on the sensorimotor stage, I was really malikot. I always liked to crawl and practice walking; I also have a habit of tasting everything, especially my toys. Slapping people is also one of my habits back then especially if I don’t know the person, my parents said that I would cry and try to slap the person carrying me if it’s my first time seeing them. My mom also said that she likes to tie my hair because I'm curly. 21

CHAPTER 4 - COGNITIVE DEVELOPMENT During the pre-operational stage, I often played with my Lola, she would always bring me candy yogurts and Legos whenever she would visit the house. I also play with my cousins using my superhero costumes. And every day we would go outside just to buy stick-o or cigarette candies to act as if we were smoking; we also use our fingers, we make our fingers form a structured circle, and dipped them on a bucket filled with bubbles to make a semi-circle bubble in the palm of our hands. I also like to use my imagination in playing, I imagine my toys having human traits. I remember playing with my action figures and I imagine them having a confrontation before they go all out fighting one another. My family has a bonding day, it is every Sunday. I usually imitate my father while he was jogging, changing clothes, or when he is driving. I remember imitating my father by getting a C2 and then pouring it on the shot glass and acting like it was a beer. 22

CHAPTER 4 - COGNITIVE DEVELOPMENT Going through the concrete operational stage is fun because this is the stage where some of us go to school. Wherein we socialize, meet other kids, make friends, learn the basic subjects as well as do math with manipulatives. I remember asking my friend, I asked her “Ba’t mo inuuna yan? mas madali ito crocodile add lang” and then she replied “Mahirap muna para mamaya madali na lang” and ever since, I started doing the hard tasks first before the easy tasks. I also learned to organize my toys on this stage. I organize them through grouping them based on their variations. Colors are my basis back then on organizing my hot wheels toys. My favorite color is blue and so the blue cars are always at the front while the trucks with different colors are on the back. While for my Legos, I organize them through their character. Good guys like Captain America and the Hulk are on one container while the villains like Darth Vader and Mr. Freeze are on the other container. 23

CHAPTER 4 - COGNITIVE DEVELOPMENT The formal operational stage is the most challenging stage. I find this stage challenging because this is where we start to question our beliefs. And, as we grow older our knowledge expands to different information that may change or strengthen our beliefs. When I was starting to develop my own beliefs, I struggled to fit in with other’s beliefs which somehow resulted in them lecturing me. In this stage, we also encounter the development of compassion towards other people. I’ve always been kind to others, it is a trait that I got from my parents. They are very helpful towards others; my father is easily touched whenever he sees a parent struggling while my mother gets easily emotional by almost everything. This trait that they passed on to me is one of the traits that I am proud of. That is why I am grateful to be part of the youth volunteers and the student catholic action, these are organizations that has programs which aims to help individuals. 24

CHAPTER 5 - PSYCHOSOCIAL DEVELOPMENT The psychosocial development opens my mind to the different struggles that I may have been experienced which resulted in who I am today. When I was an infant, I had my yaya and my mother who always made sure to give what I needed. My mother has always been hands on to us. She cooks, feeds, and cleans me when I was a newborn. She is a caring and loving mother. It is because of my parents that I got through the trust vs mistrust stage and got hope as a result. The second stage is autonomy vs shame and doubt. Based on my parents, when I was a toddler, I would always have a companion beside me. I have my yaya, and my cousins to help me walk and play. I have a picture with my cousin in a kiddie pool where we look confused on what’s happening around us but at the same time, we looked like we were having fun floating with our floaters. They also said that whenever lola would be around, I would always get my toys and play with her. My father also said that there was one scenario wherein I was playing with my lola and I broke my nose because I was so makulit. The presence of others during this stage is powerful, it is because of this that I am confident and close with my family. And, because of that I acquired autonomy. 25

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CHAPTER 5 - PSYCHOSOCIAL DEVELOPMENT During the initiative vs guilt stage, I learned my purpose which is to learn and grow. I was 4 when I started schooling in Montessori. I remember having a friend there, but I cannot remember his name although I recognized him in the pictures that my parents took. We did a folk dance back then where I wore a traditional costume. It is also at that stage where I first learn addition and subtraction using manipulatives like animal figures. I remember learning to read and write with the help of my tutor who is also a friend of my mom. She is a public-school teacher that has a side hustle of tutoring. She would always bring flashcards with different colors for me to practice. 27

CHAPTER 5 - PSYCHOSOCIAL DEVELOPMENT The next stage is industry vs inferiority, this is the stage where we are being challenged by the way we are. We experience different struggles at home and in school. This is the stage that will test us if we can be industrious and resourceful in solving the adversities that we will face. I remember having my first homework. In my previous school there was no homework, but for the first time my teacher in grade 2 said that we should finish the cursive module before going to school on Monday. She announced that on Friday, so I have 2 days to accomplish it. And because I spent my whole Saturday playing my transformers figure and watching the transformers cartoons, I stayed up late for the first time, beyond my scheduled bedtime, just to finish it. My school journey from grade 1-6 has been awesome because I received a lot of opportunities that shaped my skills and my personality. My first competition was the Marian competition which is a competition about mama Mary. I didn’t win but I was in 3rd place, so it is still good. After that year, I became a president which is a real struggle because its hard implementing rules when some might be mad on you. It was hard to balance the relationship between what you should do and what your classmates want. I also experienced my first leadership training seminar that year which was a great experience. 28

CHAPTER 5 - PSYCHOSOCIAL DEVELOPMENT I had my first crush on grade 4, had the opportunity to be the leader of the boy scouts in our room, and I was able to be part of one of the competitors in a math quiz bee. I experienced a lot of competitions during my grade 5; it is also in this grade that I experienced my first overnight activity in school with my friends. Grade 6 has been a roller coaster ride for me because this is the grade that I disappointed my parents, tumakas ako from school to go to the mall because I never experienced going out with my friends. They lectured me, but that was just normal because they were frightened. I admitted to them that it was my fault. After that they trusted me to go out on one condition which is to always communicate with them. I became a lakan in that same year for a competition in filipino although I didn’t win. And I was also successful to get the position of the vice president in SPG (student pupil government). My grade school journey ended with a successful graduation. My experiences during this stage led me to achieve competence. 29

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CHAPTER 5 - PSYCHOSOCIAL DEVELOPMENT Role vs role confusion is the stage where I am right now. Honestly, I did encountered some problems in identifying my gender role because as I grew up, I was patpatin and sensitive. My family often jokes about it which made me confuse. For others, they assume that if a person is sensitive, they are gay, so I was confused of my gender. Luckily, I encountered some post on facebook when I was on first year high school which says that there are men who doesn’t own a good physique or are sensitive. And so, after that I finally concluded that my gender identity is male. This experience of mine pushed me to be more understanding of the different roles in our society. Men are not always how others perceived them to be and that is also the same for women. Roles do not stop with gender. Right now, I am struggling to know the right path for me to take towards the future. I don’t know if the road that I will take is what I am supposed to take, or if it is the role dedicated for me. I am not sure if the profession that I would choose to pursue will give me success or the result that I want to have. Uncertainty is one of the things that life offers us; it has its own pros and cons. So, I am really thinking my decision thoroughly. 31

CHAPTER 6 - MORAL DEVELOPMENT Moral development is one of the important developments we encounter that shapes our beliefs and principles in life. Currently, I think I’m on the conventional level. I am not sure if I would be one of the 10-15% of people that will go through the post conventional level. Obedience vs punishment is a stage under the pre-conventional level. An experience of mine in this stage is the eating of vegetables. When I was younger, I didn’t like vegetables and so my father would make me stand up and move to the side until I chose to eat the vegetable. He would say “tumayo ka diyan, wag ka uupo hanggat di ka kakain ng gulay” and because of that I learned to appreciate vegetables. Now, I eat almost all kinds of vegetables and my favorite vegetable is broccoli. Another experience I have with this stage is when I must sleep during the noon preferably 1-3pm because they would tell me that lolo Oka would eat me if he saw me going down the stairs. Another stage in this level is personal reward. During this stage I would always finish my food just to have ice cream later in the evening. I also try to have a good remark during PFCs so that my father would buy me a reward. Just like when he bought me a ukelele when we went to Boracay. Also, it is on this stage that If I want extra money I would always say to my dad “Pa, bunutan kita puti, piso lang isa” then, he will agree. At that time, I usually make 150 – 200 pesos per bunot but, it still depends on how much I need. If I need more I don’t stop until I have enough white hair. 32

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CHAPTER 6 - MORAL DEVELOPMENT Interpersonal conformity which is under the conventional level occurred to me in high school. During the interpersonal conformity stage, I usually lean on what others think would be suited for me. I remember I tried something that is bad for my age, but I still do it because my friends said it’s okay. At that time, I based my judgement on what most people think is good. Law and order stage is also part of the conventional level. One of the memorable experiences I have on this stage was when I hang out with my friends last august. We went to this mall without knowing how to commute home. We traced back our steps and we used the available resources provided by the law. We asked the traffic officer, and he lent us a hand. We followed what the officer said while complying with the laws implemented on the streets that prevent accidents. That is the moment where I realized how helpful laws are and how important the people that implements them. These experiences are part of who I am today. I wouldn’t be me without my achievements and mistakes. I wouldn’t progress to learn and change things if I didn’t accept them at first. Each one of them is an experience I won’t forget. And I can use them to learn how I can improve myself, because not only are they an experience but each of them holds a lesson to learn too. 34

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CHAPTER 7 - DEVELOPMENTAL TASKS AND CHALLENGES There are a lot of developmental tasks for adolescence to undergo. I have already completed some of these tasks but there are still others that I haven’t accomplished yet. I assess myself to be able to identify the tasks that I’ve already completed and the tasks that I still haven’t. The tasks that I’ve already passed are tasks in which an adolescent must adjust to a new physical sense of self, an adolescent must adjust to new intellectual abilities, an adolescent must adjust to increased cognitive demands at school, an adolescent must develop stable and productive peer relationships, an adolescent must learn to manage his/her sexuality, and an adolescent must adopt a personal value system and an adolescent must develop increased impulse control and behavioral maturity. These tasks that I have completed were made possible by different scenarios throughout my adolescence. 36

CHAPTER 7 - DEVELOPMENTAL TASKS AND CHALLENGES While the tasks that I haven’t fulfilled yet are tasks in which an adolescent must develop expanded verbal skills, an adolescent must develop a personal sense of identity, an adolescent must establish adult vocational goals, and, lastly, an adolescent must establish emotional and psychological independence from his/her parents. When I was evaluating myself on these different tasks, I observed that there are 3 things that I need to resolve first. These 3 are independence, openness, and being appreciative. Independence because there are still things that I rely on to my parents. Openness because I don’t share my opinion and thoughts with others. And being appreciative to myself because as I was assessing I noticed that I appreciate other’s effort but my appreciation to myself does not even equate to how I appreciate others. There are 4 developmental challenges that were mentioned in the module but I’ve only experienced 2 which are body image and irregular sleep patterns. When I was growing up, I always looked at my body as strong even though it was weak. But thankfully, I’ve recognized the problem and did something to solve it. While irregular sleep patterns happened when I was in my 2nd year in high school, I would always have trouble in initiating sleep. I remember not being able to sleep for a day because I can’t initiate sleep even when I almost did everything. 37

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